saturdae.. 08.08.09

my life have been in a confused state again..

i tink ive been quite out of my mind these few days..

juz dunnoe wads happening..

there's so many reasons that make mie myself confuse..

the results that i got in term 1.. its juz sooo not mie.. i juz dunnoe y..

the things that happen in my life..

the feelings that i got towards people around mie.. juz feel useless n being used..

hmm...

i've been quite down these few days..

juz feel terribly terrible n juz tinking on how i'll die..

i juz need the answer..

these thoughts juz wont go away..

so many scenes juz pop out of my head..

hmm.. if i jot it down, it wont b a secret within myself any more.. so i wont n plz dun ask mie to tell u..

its a conflict between myself..

hmm... tink i juz feel lyk not jotting down in here anymore..

may do it wen im more free n happier..rather than jotting down all the wrong stuff..

= the unhappy=
zazziezannah

friday.. 24.07.09

life is something that is kinda unpredictable.

1 moment u're extremely happy, another moment u feel like killing urself..

hmms..

i do have that feeling too..

hmms.. 

coz sometimes a confidante may not be a perfect confidante..

it applies to me too..

i'm short-tempered..

have kinda bad mood swings somtimes...

feel like purposely jay walking in front of a speeding car n then, the next moment.. I'M DEAD!!

hmms... 

juz dunnoe y..

wen im happy oso im not extremely happy..

im happy only wen im being attached to myself.. n not wif other people ard..

im happy wif talking to myself.. 

im happy wif talking to the mirror...

n lastly, im happy wif talking to my 3 stuff toys that's on my bed..

i juz feel that people r juz using mie in wadever they wanna do...

including my parents n bro...

hmms... 

i dun have someone who can really be my real confidante right now..

i juz need someone who can really understand mie n give mie advices that i can try to carry out.. 

hmms.. 

but the main point is, i would like someone who would love mie fer who i am.. someone who is of the opposite gender.. 

i juz feel that im kinda ready to be accepting love..

but before that, i need to try to control my short-temperness.. 

hmmss...

i dun need advices fer this.. i can try to do it myself... 

going off, 

zazziezannah.. 

wednesdae.. 24.06.09

a wednesdae..

the 2nd wednesdae that i get to spend fully before i stomp my feet to the hospital..

hmm..

haha..

juz dunnoe y the heck m i doing in nursing.. especially wen exposing myself to the current H1N1..

was called by sum1 from school juz now coz i declared in the form that i'll be going to malaysia...

but in the end, nvr go..

so will be going fer attachment next week ah..

the nice ting will be my last dae will b a morning shift..

so after hospital will be compass point...window shopping...

hahahaha...

or may b vivocity..

1 stop awae..

ahhaha..

yeah yeah...

so long since i get a proper shopping treatment..

shall ask my gurlfrens..

yeah yeah..

kinda happy... but kinda lazy

i hate the 430 wake up time.

URGH!!!

if only i can teleport to the hospital...

ahhaaha...

kz...

going now..

bubbyes for my sweets..

xoxo

wednesdae.. 100609

hmm...

went to school fer a 1hr common test paper...

i noe that i blogged on sumting bout bro ytd...

in d end, i juz left him to sae wadever he wanna sae...

so no beating up, no report book n no break his secret...

hmm..

after i posted a blog ytd, i came across 2 BEAUTIFUL blogs....

they r absolutely BEAUTIFUL..

beautiful as in the blog posts r BEAUTIFULLY typed wif BEAUTIFUL words...

i really admire the 2 blogs...

its juz based on the feeling of the 2 bloggers...

they were brave enuff 2 talk bout how good they were in being 'maids' to their group members...

i was mesmerized by what they had typed on how they were sooo DAMN hardworking in doing ALL the work whereas it shuld b done as a group...

its juz so them man...

i love the way they expressed their childishness in a blog rather than talking to their group members straight in the face...

i juz wonder y...

hmm...

ouh man pity them...

being bullied by fellow group members n wanting the SYMPATHY of dear readers...

AWWW!!!!

hmm...

btw, the group members that they talked about or rather, bitched about, r tinking on the reasons y these 2 dear bloggers decided to do all the work by themselves n then juz take it as the other group members did not offer to help or merely juz to apologize or say a big THANK YOU to them...

hmm...

or izit juz that sum1 showed them an "i'm pissed off wif u face???"

its juz that the particular person juz did not wanna sae that she was disappointed in some peeps...

ouh man...

dun judge a book by its cover....

kz readers..

i tink if u all can tink bout how other peeps will feel wen they find out some cyber bully who juz merely loves to bitch about peeps on their blogs n even give the peeps ' silent treatment' which may b sumting that shows cluelessness... 

which means, oooohhhh its a mystery...

so peeps tink bout it..

k lahz.. 

so if sumting had come to ur mind n is plz to give opinions to us, tell us directly in the face...

tuesdae.. 090609

hmm..

zazzie's here again

been feeling quite sad rite now..

coz of bro ah..

i juz dunnoe how 2 explain ah..

he juz kinda love making mie wanna slap n kick him..

he will say tings that really really piss mie off...

URGH!!!!

stupid hellish bro..!!!!!

he's one that i tink no one can tolerate..

i juz dunnoe how he made it 2 b a school prefect..

the moment he blurt out sumting, its juz sumting that will make peeps ard him piss off n juz wanna kick him..

i juz feel lyk throwing him out of house..

but mum surely will say " y u do that 2 ur bro?? he's ur only sibling, eh..!!"

URGH!!!! 

i juz feel so helpless man..

i tink i shuld've find sum frens 2 hang out wif rather than sit at home n getting pissed as well as sad at the same time..

this hellish bro alwaes say " U pampered child..!!"

i tink after writing this, if he still make mie piss off, i shuld punch him n see him cry.. 

then may b if there's a blue-black anywhere, i'll take a pix n put it on this dear blog of mine..

or shuld i juz reveal a secret to dad regarding the Nerf gun that i had 2 buy him which cost mie a bomb of 92 bux??

hmm...

that's kinda intresting..

or may b his report book ??

hmm...

which 1 will b da best???

hahahahs...

this is sooo zazzie man..

zazzie's never nice..

may look nice but there'll always b sumting in her mind..

hhahahas..

so beware humans..

u may even get sumting from zazzie if u make her fed up..

* ching ching*

k lah all..

gotta go..

go n tink how 2 take revenge..

xoxo

 

wednesdae..27.05.09

hmm..

its been a while since i typed down sumting on my blog..

hmm..

been kinda busy with assignments which sumtymes get mie on my nerves..

coz i juz dunt understand y that particular assignment have to b done whereas it may not be related to my career...

Gosh!!!

looking at the date, it reminds mie of my upcoming nsl practical test n common tests...

i'm kinda stressed up rite now..

but i dunnoe y i still have the mood to skip sum lectures..

GOSH!!!

zazziezannah !!!

wad happened???

haaha...

still wondering since wen i became the type who skips lectures...

but i tink its kinda normal..

hahaha..

for a poly student..

kz..

study n books aside..

lets talk bout how my life had been...

hmm..

kinda great..

juz waiting fer da time wen i'll b declared the millionaire..

which will take millions of years..

hahahahs..

but i'm kinda happy coz dad had started on job training fer quite sumtym..

kinda getting used to the work..

but he still nids sumtym to get used to the type of humans that he'll meet wen he's doing his job as a technician..

he'll b sumone who goes frm house to house, fixing faulty MIO sets n modems too..

under the name of singtel..

hahahas..

lyk promoter sia...

okies.. i tinks dats all bout my life fer now..

juz bfer i go , wuld share a kinda sweet qoute..

" We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find. "

By : Unknown..

>> zazzieezannah <<

mondae.. 04.05.09

hey dearests..

i'm back to blog in a post...

i've been quite busy this daes to blog..

its my life being a student..

haha...

when u read this post, i'm at the sch's lib..

viewing my facebook acc, tagged acc, hotmail n all sorts of acc that i have..

haha...

which merely include blogger acc..

eyes been quite tired fer the whole dae..

i tink that my current timetable is really really tuff..

its lyk i'm spending the whole dae at sch..

n to add to this, i still have to do assignments n all sorts of things that a normal student do..

hmm..

this is really life being a student..

sumtymes i get sick of it..

but when i go fer attachments, i tink that i'm kinda fortunate fer being a student rather than a working teenager..

its juz too tiring fer mie..

the good thing if i'm working will b getting the pay ah..

who dun want $ sia..

$ is kinda giving us the life man...

no $ no lyf..

kinda..

but surely i'm not the materialistic type..

coz it juz make mie feel that it's not rite..

shopping will b the best activity to do..

but this merely involves $ obviously..

haha..

gurls cant run fron going fer a short trip of shopping rite..

its juz lyf..

hahas..

n this is sumting that we muz admit..

though sumtymes u may not want to admit coz u dun feel rite if u admit..

haha..

hmm..

i tink i juz wanna stop where i stopped rite now..

heheehs..

going now..

xoxo

>> zazziezannah <<