3 days straight, i've been bugged..
not by someone.. but by headache..
before this, in september, i've consulted a doctor..
she did the test for my nerves and so far, she said that my nerves are fine...
no damages..
but nw, i think there's something wrong with mie..
panadol worked for a few hours only.. not even the whole day..
today marks the 3rd day im suffering from headache plus nausea, especially in the morning..
the headache goes on for the whole day, nausea is only in the morning..
did some reading about this..
and potential it may b migraine..
but must it stay for this long..?
well, im ardy 21. so even if i have to go for any scans, i can always sign it myself..
i dont need my parents anymore..
they dunt need to know what's happening to mie.
i dunt even want them to know.
even if it may cost my own life, just let it be..
im prepared to 'depart' to another world.
i know u all dunt need mie anymore..
i know who i am..
that bad-tempered gurl who screams and shouts..
i know where i stand in ur hearts, dear parents..
i dunt need any explanation from the both of u..
i just want the both of u to pray that i will leave all of u soon..
i dunt wish to live anymore.. but God still give mie life to live, even though He knows that i dunt need and dunt want my life anymore..
Dear God,
can u please take away my life or at least let mie be a 'vegetable'..?
im prepared for that..
i dunt wish to live anymore..
i dunt wish to b a burden for the people around mie..
be it my own family, friends or colleagues..
thank u God if u get to grant mie my 1st 21st wish..
