things happening in life

thoughts...

2011-06-28T11:06:00.003+08:00

"who will care if i'm diagnosed with any serious illness...?"

"who will care if my life's not that long...?"

well, i may sound suicidal..

i may sound like i dont care about my life..

but these are the thoughts that come to my mind every time i'm upset with my own life..

the reason i'm upset..?

hmm.. somehow, i noticed that most of what i dream of and planned, are not going the way i want..

there's always something that make it impossible for me to achieve what i want and planned..

whatever it is, if anything happens to me,

my love for my loved ones, is unconditional and i really do hope that they will continue to lead their lives as per normal..

without me around, doesnt mean that they should stop living as well..

and i really would like to Thank all my loved ones for the support, the care & concern, the unconditional love, the laughters, the jokes and the fun.

i really treasure all of u.. my parents, brother, gurlfriends, the ones that had feelings for me, the ones that i had feelings for.. thank u lots.. love ya lots..

do take care..

i know...

2011-06-21T14:12:00.003+08:00

hmm..

when u need my money, u're soo damn sweet..

when u don't, u call mie 1001 names..

not only that, u even cursed mie..

well.. i know..

im your walking bank..

'annoying' ...

'irritating'...

'bitch'...

3 hurting words that u always tweet...

have u ever wished that this 'annoying, irritating bitch' will leave u...?

just like that...

let u have the chance of being 'the only son'...?

hmm..

if u ever wished this to happen, i really do hope that ur wish will come true..

may b not today, not tomorrow, but soon..

before im involved in any commitment..

relationships, work..

right now, i'm on my own..

so, if anything happens to mie, i can go peacefully...

no matter what, i still love you..

you're the only brother that i have..

the only sibling..

but i could feel that u don't treasure mie..

like how i treasure u...

soon enough, there'll be no one who will bother u anymore..

but i hope that u'll make our parents proud of u..

i've done my part, now it's ur turn..

goodbye and take care.. :)

what more can i say...

2011-06-14T12:15:00.001+08:00

well..
today it's just a whirl load of feelings..
it's a swing that I can't even take it..
seriously..
but seriously serious, I don't know why my own sibling just seems to dislike mie, and may b he even hates mie...
i've been constantly being called a 'bitch'...
and somehow, I feel like as if my presence seems to be a bother to him..
well, what more can I do...
my life is still long..
but I do hope that God will shorten it..
so that I won't be a bother to him anymore..
yup, ANYMORE..
think that's the time that he'll appreciate mie just the way that everyone, yearns to be appreciated..
the time that he has no one to call a 'bitch'..
no one that will ask him 'hey let's go out with mie'...
no one that will ask him 'hey what're u doing'..
no one that will disturb him when he's on the phone with his gurlf or while he's playing game...
totally... NO ONE...

i fail to understand...

2011-06-12T16:08:00.002+08:00

this happened yesterday...

when the 3 of us decided to sit somewhere and talk..

like kind of a 'heart to heart' talk..

more like a girls' talk..

ok.. 1 question was posted to mie..

"what's ur criteria in ur dream guy...?"

hmm ok.. it's not an easy question..

like really not easy..

so okay luh..

i gave my 1st answer.. "someone who is not clingy"

thought that that answer will just b given a nod.. since it's my decision..

but HUH... it was being commented instead.. and it was not something that i expected..

the comment was.. "wait till u fall in love.. a few days of not seeing each other will be something that u dread a lot.."

hmm.. okay.. but what if im still okay..?

i know u're the type who cant live without a guy being with u..

or may b it's just my feelings since i've been single all my life and freedom is really mine..

where i want to go, what i want to do, who i want to talk to and go with, when i want to do my stuffs, why i want to do certain things, are all up to mie..

but seriously, there are sure certain things that i was not happy with when i go out with them...

not like how it used to be..

well, actually, i wasnt happy all along...

but i had to bottle up everything for i dont want to hurt people's feelings...

and seriously, i want to lead my own life without people telling mie what to do and what not to do..

seriously, i still find that someone whom i've been friends with since sec school is the one who can somehow understand mie..

although for sure there are certain things that i dont really like.. but it's okay for mie..

what's up with mie..?

2011-05-31T17:51:00.002+08:00

seriously, ever since 2011 started,

i've not been in the best of health..

there will always be something that i'm suffering from..

asthma, fever, tonsilitis, flu, cough..

last few years were the best..

i've been in the pink of health..

but i know..

this is all written by God,

and i don't have the right to fight..

it's all written by Him..

some people will say, if u're always sick, it means that God loves you..

some will say, it means that u've been forgetting about Him..

i don't know..

but i do feel that something is wrong with me..

i dont feel like how i used to feel, last time..

is it because i'm growing up and how i feel is related to that..

or is it because of other certain reasons that i dont wish to write here..

i dont know..

i'm still in doubts..

whatever it is, i'll just take care of myself..

make people around me happy..

make myself happy..

and just go on with whatever is written for me..

whatever happens in the future is a surprise for me as well as everyone else..

whom i love dearly.. and whom i know loves me for what i am..

Graddy Grad Grad...!

2011-05-27T19:04:00.002+08:00

yes..!

today, officially marks the end of my life being a poly student...

a Ngee Ann Poly Nursing student...

poly life was great... as per usual, there's ups and downs...

be it friendship, studies and everything else..

including matters of the heart..

yes...!

i do still have this feeling for this certain someone...

but i got it under control just now..

since it's like my BIG day...

so i shouldn't spoil it just because of one sided love..

it's okay..

if we're destined to be for each other, for sure we'll be back together..

and yes, i'll miss this certain someone dearly..

the times we had together.. 3 years in the same class...

n i hope there'll be a chance for us to be together again..

not as classmates, but as couple..

i don't know if it'll happen..

but still, i do hope it does..

anyways, good luck to u and may we meet again..

what's happening..?

2011-05-16T00:14:00.002+08:00

seriously...

i dont know what's going on with mie..

my health has never improve to the better side..

today, i just dont feel right..

i could feel my head spinning...

as if i got a concussion..

i know that i have been banging my head every time i feel upset..

that's a fact..

seriously..

damn..

there are sure times when i feel that my time is almost up..

i just dont know when, where, what time..

it's not up to mie..

it's up to Him..

my head's spinning like urgh...

i dont know..

hope that this will end soon...

hahahah.. love..?

2011-05-02T20:05:00.002+08:00

yes..

i'm sitting here..

wondering..

wondering about feelings and matters of the heart..

i still dont know..

what is true love..

even, i dont know what is love..

i fail to understand what is love..

right now, i still dont know...

why this sudden appearance of this particular person in my life...

he suddenly appeared in my life and is like putting high hopes to b in love with mie..

may b not true love..

but temporarily in love with mie..

i seriously dont know if it'll turn out well..

and im still confuse to either accept him to b in my life or not.

hmmm.. the phase of growing out of my comfort zone..

i think, for this few days, i've been giving the hope..

the hope that, i hope will not break his heart if i were to reject him due to my unreadiness to b in a relationship with someone...

but there are times when i think again..

until when will i not b ready to be in a relationship..

dear you,

i hope that u dont put too much hope into being in a relationship with mie..

i would not like to break ur heart..

it's painful to break someone's heart.. because it'll break my heart as well..

i hope we can just be pretty normal friends.. platonic friendship, so called..

it's not the looks that i go for..

but the answer is in my heart..

and i fail to pour out what i'm feeling all this while..

sorry, you...

i dont know why..

2011-04-30T11:47:00.002+08:00

yes, i know..

i've been a hypocrite..

i've told stories of u to another friend..

n i've told stories about the other friend to you..

but i need someone to tell my heart feelings to without hurting the other party's feelings..

n btw, i dont understand y u must tell that other party whom i dont like about what have been happening to us..

i've nicely apologize to u and yet u dint even take the initiative to just reply that particular message..

i know u dont need mie anymore.. like there used to be the times..

but just tell mie through the message that u dont need mie anymore..

i like it when we're apart.. i dont need u even..

i'd rather pour everything into my diary..

at least it wont spill to humans..

well...

u've build up this hate feeling that i have towards the both of u..

n i know i'm not sorry about this..

u're just the same..

u pour what had happened to someone which particularly be on ur side..

i think soon enough, i'll quit..

i've been making the wrong friends since i was in primary school.

it's like a curse..

i dont understand..

and poly is the place that i really made the biggest mistake..

to be friends with people like u..

who envy people's life..

the last day before..

2009-12-20T18:39:00.002+08:00

hmm..

the last day before i stomp my feet on the hospital's floors..

and cause disaster..

man... heavy heart

new environment.. new stuff-to-do...

new bunch of people.. new expectations..

almost evryting is new.. its just the same old mie..

whenever its time for attachment, my heart will olwaes b damn heavy..

heavy to leave the holidays... having fun on my own..

do my own stuff.. though i was staying at home all time..

man.. please.. someone please tell mie that attachment's gonna b fun...

as in fun means that no one ignores the students.. students are treated well...

sometimes, wen i go for attachment..

i wonder.. y SOME people just seems to 'not like' the presence of students..

whereas they were once students..

its not as if when they were born, they were trained by their parents to be a nurse and when its time to get a job, they go for an interview and straight away, they get the job..

one step at a time.. as goes the song..

i tink that the world is really full of politics..

what ever u do, wherever u go, whoever u mix with..

its all the same.

hmms..

k babes.. going now..

will update tomorrow if possible on how my first day goes..

ciaos..

xoxo

the lover,

zazziezannah

wednesday.. 09.12.09

2009-12-09T16:56:00.002+08:00

hmms...

nothing much happen today..

seems to be dreaming of being attached..

hahahas..

seems to be feeling kinda lonely..

coz im not the type where evrywhere and anywhere i go got frens..

im the type who can stay at home for 24/7

hahahs.. confession made

haha..

had a splitting headache on the right side which lasted for like olmost an hour..

hmms... had it for a few times since..

but decided to keep quiet bout it...

hmms..

k lah..

going now..

>>zazziezannah<<

tuesday.. 08.12.09

2009-12-08T14:42:00.002+08:00

hmms

having holiday rite now..

2 weeks only...

urgh..!! idiot..

just want a longer holiday..

hahah... being greedy bout holiday..

whatever..

been in the mood for love or dates..

just dunnoe y... think i've been too lonely for a long time..

super long to be exact.. 18 years of living..

other people.. must have been changing a lot of partners..

just dunnoe y... tink i'm too shy ard peeps...

hahahs..

tink need to open up my mind ardy but it's olwaes the same..

hhahah.. met dr. love.. she has a lot of experiences..

hahahah.. getting closer to her i think..

been reading girl guides online too..

just to give me the brief idea bout wad life is when u're attached with someone..

hahaha.. just wish that this loneliness will be killed one day..

but i noe it may take a super damn long..

hmmm..

kz peeps.... until here i'm gonna pour out my feelings..

>>zazziezannah<<

wednesday.. 02.12.09

2009-12-02T16:27:00.002+08:00

wednesday..

the week i'm having common test.. term test.. some sort like that

n having this flu at the same time..

making my eyes very very damn heavy..

which means that i need to sleep

but study is my priority

sleep later..

but the books are making my eyes heavier..

haiz..

but y flu??? y now??

urgh..!!!

help mie...!!!!!!

sunday.. 08.11.09

2009-11-08T18:27:00.000+08:00

just dunnoe y..

just need to know y...

just dunnoe y today my mind seems to tink bout my current status..

was on the bus to kovan..

this question just popped out..

n i just wanna share with u all..

5 reasons why zazziezannah is not in a relationship and is currently still single..

1) she's afraid of guys but dont ask her y

2) she wanna achieve her dreams (getting bike license and ride a bike coz she noes that it'll b impossible if she's in a relationship...)

3) is not ready for a relationship

4) she's more to the family orientated..

5) the news about the bad side of guys posted in the newspaper are kinda adding to the scare..

hahhaa..

i noe its kinda stupid..

but what to do..

its my life..

change mie if u can.. but dun force..

coz she HATES force..

okies..

there's another thing to share..

ok i went out with bro on wednesday to compass point

just walk around and window shop

then, bout 8 plus..

decided to go home... tired sia..

then passed by the DMK shoe shop

saw a damn nice new arrival high heel pump..

but that was not all that i saw..

i saw someone... that guy fren to be exact..

he was staring at me and bro..

then just now, he asked mie..

where did i go on wed...

" cp...y?"

" with who did u go with?"

"bro.. i swear"

hmm... wads wrong with going out with bro..

i noe we looked like a couple coz we're damn close and hold hands when we walked sometimes..

haiz..

why are u jealous whereas we are JUST FRIENDS..

when u asked, u sounded different.. like u noe..

hhaha..

people this days..

jump to conclusion easily..

kz all...

enjoy the last few hours of weekend..

take care folks..

>>zazziezannah<<

thursday.. 05.11.09

2009-11-05T20:20:00.000+08:00

a no school day..
coz only 2 modules today n both lecturers went for course..
so stay at home..
looked out of the window n the clouds just love to let it rain..
its been raining for a few days since..
brother went to facilitate camp..
so lonely at home..
feel worried for him..
coz its like raining so damn heavily..
not cats n dogs anymore..
it looks like all animals at one time..
gosh.. dad went for work.. n he's riding motorbike...
URGH!!

worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry

friday.. 30.10.09

2009-10-30T14:04:00.001+08:00

Life have been busy for me..
Assignments have been flowing in like water..
This is the life being in a poly..
Which is so expected..
In the end, we'll still be having common tests and exams..
Kinda unfair but its the reality..

My feelings..
Have been having the ups and downs..
But i think i may not have shown it..

I just don't know why I've been having this "I need you" feeling..
However, I know that certain people that I dream of spending the time with, does not have this feeling towards me..
Hahahas..
Reality..
My life have been filled with dreams and fantasies of being with the one i would like to be with..
Love songs just want to make me cry sometimes..
Cause i just remembered that you don't need me anymore..

... the dreamer ...
zazziezannah

thursday... 221009

2009-10-22T19:13:00.001+08:00

hmms..

4 days since school started..

kinda miss holiday..

wish to have longer holiday..

timetable..hmms dont like it except for thursday and friday

hmm.. Z.A.F.A .. haha kinda miss the times when we spent the 1 whole year together..

now only the Z and F are in the same class.. the As had separated..

but still meet for lunch sometimes..

hmms..

ok.. just wanna pour out my feelings today..

just dunnoe y this feeling keep coming and haunting my heart and mind..

had tried forgetting the times we spent together but i came back again, begging mie not to throw it away like i wish i could..

now its making mie confused over what i am feeling for this particular person..

i noe that we are in two different worlds..

urgh..!!

just wish that i could do some brain wash and forget all the times when i helped u, talked to u...

i noe that i'm the type who is hard to be approached.. but plz dun blame mie..

and i m neither blaming u..

coz it's just my nature.. just dunnoe y..

tink i just dunt feel comfortable when talking to peeps...

urgh..!!

oh God, plz give mie the confidence and courage to talk to other humans..

i m no different from them.. they are humans too and so i m..

why m i being so afraid of humans..??

urgh..!!

haiz..

just dunnoe what to say about myself.. its just my nature and i need to change it before stepping into the world of career..

coz my career needs my mouth..

haha..

kz..

will blog again soon..!!

hehehes..

= zazziezannah =

saturdae.. 08.08.09

2009-08-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

my life have been in a confused state again..

i tink ive been quite out of my mind these few days..

juz dunnoe wads happening..

there's so many reasons that make mie myself confuse..

the results that i got in term 1.. its juz sooo not mie.. i juz dunnoe y..

the things that happen in my life..

the feelings that i got towards people around mie.. juz feel useless n being used..

hmm...

i've been quite down these few days..

juz feel terribly terrible n juz tinking on how i'll die..

i juz need the answer..

these thoughts juz wont go away..

so many scenes juz pop out of my head..

hmm.. if i jot it down, it wont b a secret within myself any more.. so i wont n plz dun ask mie to tell u..

its a conflict between myself..

hmm... tink i juz feel lyk not jotting down in here anymore..

may do it wen im more free n happier..rather than jotting down all the wrong stuff..

= the unhappy=
zazziezannah

friday.. 24.07.09

2009-07-24T19:18:00.002+08:00

life is something that is kinda unpredictable.

1 moment u're extremely happy, another moment u feel like killing urself..

hmms..

i do have that feeling too..

hmms..

coz sometimes a confidante may not be a perfect confidante..

it applies to me too..

i'm short-tempered..

have kinda bad mood swings somtimes...

feel like purposely jay walking in front of a speeding car n then, the next moment.. I'M DEAD!!

hmms...

juz dunnoe y..

wen im happy oso im not extremely happy..

im happy only wen im being attached to myself.. n not wif other people ard..

im happy wif talking to myself..

im happy wif talking to the mirror...

n lastly, im happy wif talking to my 3 stuff toys that's on my bed..

i juz feel that people r juz using mie in wadever they wanna do...

including my parents n bro...

hmms...

i dun have someone who can really be my real confidante right now..

i juz need someone who can really understand mie n give mie advices that i can try to carry out..

hmms..

but the main point is, i would like someone who would love mie fer who i am.. someone who is of the opposite gender..

i juz feel that im kinda ready to be accepting love..

but before that, i need to try to control my short-temperness..

hmmss...

i dun need advices fer this.. i can try to do it myself...

going off,

zazziezannah..

wednesdae.. 24.06.09

2009-06-24T17:25:00.002+08:00

a wednesdae..

the 2nd wednesdae that i get to spend fully before i stomp my feet to the hospital..

hmm..

haha..

juz dunnoe y the heck m i doing in nursing.. especially wen exposing myself to the current H1N1..

was called by sum1 from school juz now coz i declared in the form that i'll be going to malaysia...

but in the end, nvr go..

so will be going fer attachment next week ah..

the nice ting will be my last dae will b a morning shift..

so after hospital will be compass point...window shopping...

hahahaha...

or may b vivocity..

1 stop awae..

ahhaha..

yeah yeah...

so long since i get a proper shopping treatment..

shall ask my gurlfrens..

yeah yeah..

kinda happy... but kinda lazy

i hate the 430 wake up time.

URGH!!!

if only i can teleport to the hospital...

ahhaaha...

kz...

going now..

bubbyes for my sweets..

xoxo

wednesdae.. 100609

2009-06-10T17:37:00.002+08:00

hmm...

went to school fer a 1hr common test paper...

i noe that i blogged on sumting bout bro ytd...

in d end, i juz left him to sae wadever he wanna sae...

so no beating up, no report book n no break his secret...

hmm..

after i posted a blog ytd, i came across 2 BEAUTIFUL blogs....

they r absolutely BEAUTIFUL..

beautiful as in the blog posts r BEAUTIFULLY typed wif BEAUTIFUL words...

i really admire the 2 blogs...

its juz based on the feeling of the 2 bloggers...

they were brave enuff 2 talk bout how good they were in being 'maids' to their group members...

i was mesmerized by what they had typed on how they were sooo DAMN hardworking in doing ALL the work whereas it shuld b done as a group...

its juz so them man...

i love the way they expressed their childishness in a blog rather than talking to their group members straight in the face...

i juz wonder y...

hmm...

ouh man pity them...

being bullied by fellow group members n wanting the SYMPATHY of dear readers...

AWWW!!!!

hmm...

btw, the group members that they talked about or rather, bitched about, r tinking on the reasons y these 2 dear bloggers decided to do all the work by themselves n then juz take it as the other group members did not offer to help or merely juz to apologize or say a big THANK YOU to them...

hmm...

or izit juz that sum1 showed them an "i'm pissed off wif u face???"

its juz that the particular person juz did not wanna sae that she was disappointed in some peeps...

ouh man...

dun judge a book by its cover....

kz readers..

i tink if u all can tink bout how other peeps will feel wen they find out some cyber bully who juz merely loves to bitch about peeps on their blogs n even give the peeps ' silent treatment' which may b sumting that shows cluelessness...

which means, oooohhhh its a mystery...

so peeps tink bout it..

k lahz..

so if sumting had come to ur mind n is plz to give opinions to us, tell us directly in the face...

tuesdae.. 090609

2009-06-09T18:15:00.002+08:00

hmm..

zazzie's here again

been feeling quite sad rite now..

coz of bro ah..

i juz dunnoe how 2 explain ah..

he juz kinda love making mie wanna slap n kick him..

he will say tings that really really piss mie off...

URGH!!!!

stupid hellish bro..!!!!!

he's one that i tink no one can tolerate..

i juz dunnoe how he made it 2 b a school prefect..

the moment he blurt out sumting, its juz sumting that will make peeps ard him piss off n juz wanna kick him..

i juz feel lyk throwing him out of house..

but mum surely will say " y u do that 2 ur bro?? he's ur only sibling, eh..!!"

URGH!!!!

i juz feel so helpless man..

i tink i shuld've find sum frens 2 hang out wif rather than sit at home n getting pissed as well as sad at the same time..

this hellish bro alwaes say " U pampered child..!!"

i tink after writing this, if he still make mie piss off, i shuld punch him n see him cry..

then may b if there's a blue-black anywhere, i'll take a pix n put it on this dear blog of mine..

or shuld i juz reveal a secret to dad regarding the Nerf gun that i had 2 buy him which cost mie a bomb of 92 bux??

hmm...

that's kinda intresting..

or may b his report book ??

hmm...

which 1 will b da best???

hahahahs...

this is sooo zazzie man..

zazzie's never nice..

may look nice but there'll always b sumting in her mind..

hhahahas..

so beware humans..

u may even get sumting from zazzie if u make her fed up..

* ching ching*

k lah all..

gotta go..

go n tink how 2 take revenge..

xoxo

wednesdae..27.05.09

2009-05-27T19:55:00.002+08:00

hmm..

its been a while since i typed down sumting on my blog..

hmm..

been kinda busy with assignments which sumtymes get mie on my nerves..

coz i juz dunt understand y that particular assignment have to b done whereas it may not be related to my career...

Gosh!!!

looking at the date, it reminds mie of my upcoming nsl practical test n common tests...

i'm kinda stressed up rite now..

but i dunnoe y i still have the mood to skip sum lectures..

GOSH!!!

zazziezannah !!!

wad happened???

haaha...

still wondering since wen i became the type who skips lectures...

but i tink its kinda normal..

hahaha..

for a poly student..

kz..

study n books aside..

lets talk bout how my life had been...

hmm..

kinda great..

juz waiting fer da time wen i'll b declared the millionaire..

which will take millions of years..

hahahahs..

but i'm kinda happy coz dad had started on job training fer quite sumtym..

kinda getting used to the work..

but he still nids sumtym to get used to the type of humans that he'll meet wen he's doing his job as a technician..

he'll b sumone who goes frm house to house, fixing faulty MIO sets n modems too..

under the name of singtel..

hahahas..

lyk promoter sia...

okies.. i tinks dats all bout my life fer now..

juz bfer i go , wuld share a kinda sweet qoute..

" We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find. "

By : Unknown..

>> zazzieezannah <<

mondae.. 04.05.09

2009-05-04T18:34:00.002+08:00

hey dearests..

i'm back to blog in a post...

i've been quite busy this daes to blog..

its my life being a student..

haha...

when u read this post, i'm at the sch's lib..

viewing my facebook acc, tagged acc, hotmail n all sorts of acc that i have..

haha...

which merely include blogger acc..

eyes been quite tired fer the whole dae..

i tink that my current timetable is really really tuff..

its lyk i'm spending the whole dae at sch..

n to add to this, i still have to do assignments n all sorts of things that a normal student do..

hmm..

this is really life being a student..

sumtymes i get sick of it..

but when i go fer attachments, i tink that i'm kinda fortunate fer being a student rather than a working teenager..

its juz too tiring fer mie..

the good thing if i'm working will b getting the pay ah..

who dun want $ sia..

$ is kinda giving us the life man...

no $ no lyf..

kinda..

but surely i'm not the materialistic type..

coz it juz make mie feel that it's not rite..

shopping will b the best activity to do..

but this merely involves $ obviously..

haha..

gurls cant run fron going fer a short trip of shopping rite..

its juz lyf..

hahas..

n this is sumting that we muz admit..

though sumtymes u may not want to admit coz u dun feel rite if u admit..

haha..

hmm..

i tink i juz wanna stop where i stopped rite now..

heheehs..

going now..

xoxo

>> zazziezannah <<

thursdae.. 30.04.09

2009-04-30T18:36:00.002+08:00

a thursdae..

da last dae of april..

tym had been flying past very damn quickly n it juz left mie suffering the tiredness..

this few daes, my eyes have been hurting a lot due to the super lack of sleep..

i juz love my weekends..

it seems to be heaven to mie fer being able to wake up a lil bit late..

school had been kinda tuff fer mie..

but this is reality n i have to face it till i getta hold my dear diploma..

it's my future...

talking bout future, sumtyms i feel lyk nursing is not fer mie..

but then it is the most secure job that singapore can provide fer this economy period..

i tink getting a job this daes will b a suffer fer those who r seeking fer jobs rite now..

so i tink i'll secure my diploma fer now though it's a really tuff ting..

may b i can continue other courses after diploma..

tinking of dentistry or pharmaceutical..

my dream courses..

haha...

i assume i have till this only to share rite now..

will share more bout other tings next tym..

take care alls...

muacks muacks..

xoxo

>> zazziezannah <<

saturdae.. 250409

2009-04-25T17:32:00.002+08:00

a saturdae..

da dae dat she dun have 2 go school..

but she kinda feel dat sumting not rite..

not wif da dae.. but wif her lyf n soul..

she feels sooo wrong...

she sum sort of feeling sad.. kinda heartbroken..

juz dunnoe how pour it out..

she culd feel da loneliness filling up her heart..

this made her confuse..

she juz dunnoe wads happening rite now..

she dunnoe wad is da date, da tyme, n who its gonna b..

however, she still feels lyk its not tyme yet 2 end da single mingle tyme..

coz she juz feels too young.. too immature

haha..

urgh.. i tink i wanna end da story of my feelings..

coz i tink it's no use telling my story if i juz merely dunnoe wad 2 sae bout my own feelings..

hahas..

kz all..

posting a blog next tyme..

muacks muacks..

xoxo

>> zazziezannah <<

thursdae.. 230409

2009-04-23T19:09:00.003+08:00

hmm..

4 daes after she started her lyf as a 2nd yr nursing student..

n 2mr's fridae..

hmm..

tyme flies though sumtymes u're not having fun at all..

juz dunt understand y..

hahas...

been at school since 8+..

actually she culd have been there earlier..

however coz of da shuttle bus problem that delayed her tyme..

she reached school a lil bit late but not late fer her lecture coz da ting starts at 9 am..

was quite lonely coz diao's n siti's in different class...

bel n nana woke up late 2dae..

so she juz hang ard wif tingting n jess fer lunch n lecture..

hmm..

had her 4 straight hrs of NSL lesson 2dae..

was quite tiring but she tinks dat da lecturer this tyme is a NOT BAD one..

haha...

so overall she wasnt dat bored during da long hours of lessons ah..

hehehs..

okies..

so she tinks dat her blog post's till here only..

no more story 2 tell ah..

coz not much happen 2dae..

'hehehhs...

k lahs all..

take care..

dunt miss mie...

i'll tell u more stories wen i have..

muacks muacks..

xoxo

>> zazziezannah <<

tuesdae.. 21.04.09

2009-04-21T17:21:00.002+08:00

hmm...

zazzie had started her lyf as a 2nd yr nursing student at NP...

n she's still clueless bout wad she's doing wif her lyf...

not as a student nurse but as a female adolescent...

she's still clueless bout her real feelings..

but i tink she's clueless coz she has not grown enuff though she may b ardy 18..

she's still da kind who dunt tink lyk wad adolescents her age do...

she still tink dat she's still immature n not ready for any involvement wif other parties other than her frens n family..

hmm...

sumtyms, she may observe peeps that attract her attention a lot...

wen she means a lot, it means dat it's A LOT!!!

hahhas...

but she won't b da type who stalks..

it's juz dat she's kinda attracted to u but not for long..

it may b long sumtyms n this appeals 2 sum peeps only..

da peeps dat made her have da ' i miss u ' feeling is fortunate..

hahhas..

coz if she miss u, it means dat she really miss u..

but her feelings may change..

if u ask her y, she oso dunnoe the reason...

hahah...

k lah...

this post is until here only..

wanna noe more bout wads happening, then wait for her upcoming posts..

she may tell the ' once upon a time story ' ..

hahha..

k take care all...

muacks muacks..

xoxo

>> zazziezannah <<

thursdae...090409

2009-04-10T01:29:00.002+08:00

a thursdae...

reminds mie of..... BRO'S BURFDAE!!!

his 15th burfdae...

so fast...

hahahahas...

we grow evrydae...

yup... dat is sooo true...

n 2dae was my last dae in da ward...

hmm...

quite sad 2 leave my dear patients in da ward..

but i cant possibly bringing them home 2 b treated by mie alone aite???

hhahahahahs...

especially 1 of my patients hu is quite young...

wenever she wans da commode, she'll sae " get mie my subaru..."

dat is fer normal speed, wich also mins dat her feel 2 pass wadever tings dat she wanna pass is not til da stage of urgency..

dare was 1 dae wen she wan mie 2 bring her a F1 instead of da normal subaru...

she said dat she really nid da speed....

hahhahahas...

she's hilarious...

hmmm...

miss her lots...

k lah babes..

gtg now...

going 2 sleep...

xoxo

>>zazziezannah<<

tuesdae...070409

2009-04-07T21:38:00.002+08:00

tuesdae..

it reminds mie of.... ADELE'S BURFDAE!!!!

HAPPY BURFDAE DIAO!!!!

hmm...

2dae's attachment is quite a touching one..

da patient dat reminds mie a lot of my late grandma, had been discharged though her condition is olwaes da same..

hmm...

juz feeling quite touched juz now wen i c her being taken awae frm da ward by stretchers...

hmm..

i tink my nursing mentality is olmos there...

i'm easily touched.. olmos by anyting...

: ' (

i juz feel lyk i'm getting used 2 da lyf of being a nurse... but i'm still in a bit of doubt...

coz fer now i'm easily taken in by negative comments... coz its made by 1 of da HCAs...

i juz dunnoe wads wrong wif her psychologically...

i was duing 2 cups of milo fer my patients...

then she came by...

she asked mie wad was i duing, so i sae i'm making milo ah...

i was lyk putting sum milo powder in both da cups...

then i put in sum hot water ah...

then wen i wanna bring it 2 my patients, she called mie..

" y u nvr put milk?? obviously u nvr du housework bfer izit??? "

WA LAO...

i was feeling lyk spanking her...

BASKET...

da reason i dun wanna put milk coz both my patients dun wan any milk in it...

she was quite pai seh...

if i can spank her, i du ardy...

busy body...

URGHHHHH!!!

i tot she wont disturb mie anymore...

but wen i was in da disposal room 2 trow da urine n wash da bedpan, she came in again....

she came in at da moment wen i juz threw da bedpan cover wich is made of paper...

she asked mie wad did i trow in da general waste, then i sae bedpan paper ah...

she asked mie again, got urine or not???

then i sae ah, " OF CORZ NOT AH!!!"

then i was lyk swearing n swearing in my heart....

WA LAO...

i nvr find fault wif u then dun find fault wif mie ah...

coz i noe im da only malae gurl frm ngee ann poly posted 2 da ward...

y got dis type of people hu juz dunnoe where they stand in my eyes??

i nvr disturb u if u nvr disturb mie ah...

ass..

ok i tink enuff bout dat....

let mie talk bout sumting dat u all may not b intrested in...

hahahhahas...

bout da ting dat i talked bout in da last post...

noe wad???

da sundae...050409

i went fer my religious class ah..

then i took my usual bus home..

wen i was lyk listening 2 da music dat was blasting in my ear, he took da same bus wif mie n he said " eh hie.. u take frm where??"

i was shocked..

dint expect it 2 happen...

" ouh frm heartland mall bustop..."

>> "so far... y??"

" noting..."

hmm..

i was quite happy... but i tink my feeling was mixed ah...

i juz dunnoe how 2 describe it...

hehehehehes...

k lah all...

going now...

nid 2 du my case study...

bubbyes all....

muacks muacks....

xoxo

>> zazziezannah <<

sundae...290309

2009-03-29T19:05:00.002+08:00

hmm...

hey all...

feeling quite down rite now...

juz now wen i was on da wae home after religious class, i was tinking bout sumting dat i find it weird 2 tink bout...

was feeling jealous bout sumting i shuldnt b...

was bout a guy fren hu had drifted awae frm mie after we joined another class...

fer bout 1 munth plus we havent talked...

coz i juz dint noe da reason..

i juz dunnoe y...

hmm...

kinda miss talking 2 him n taking da same bus home...

hmm...

i noe dat i shuldnt feel dis wae...

hmm...

: (

k lah babes...

going now...

go n tink bout dis stuff...

xoxo

bubbyes....

>> zazziezannah<<

wednesdae...250309

2009-03-25T23:44:00.002+08:00

a wedsnesdae...

da dae dat notes dat my attchmnt had started fer da 1st week...

its kinda making miie damn tired but i've got a lil bit of tym 2 spare since i worked AM shift 2dae n PM shift 2mr..

hmm..

2dae had been a dae full of panic , depress, n all sorts of negative feelings 2wards da patients as well as da staff nurse...

u imagine urself being scolded coz of da patient's action...

ok tell u 1 of my xperience fer 2dae...

patient wanted 2 go 2 da toilet...

so i brought her dare by commode...

1/2 wae 2 da toilet, patient was trying 2 get off da commode...

n my ward is a neuro ward...

neuro mins it has sumting dat have 2 du wif da brain...

wa lao..

then da ward sister saw..

she asked mie y did i push da commode so quickly...

ware got...

normal pace wad...

ASS..!!

then i sent da patient 2 da assisted bath room...

da ward sister had told my staff nurse..

then she came...

tot dat she wanna sae dat next tym i shuld b careful...

instead, she said " y? thin patient oso cannot handle ah??"

wa lao...

dat moment i feel lyk breaking down sia...

i oso felt lyk shouting back at her ah...

she's a damn ASS ah...

heard dat 2mr she's going back 2 her country.... phillippines

so wadever...

i juz wish sumting will happen dat i dunt wanna type down here...

hmm...

k lah...

gotta go now..

tired ardy ah...

hhahahas...

gonna sleep...

bubbbyes...

>> zazziezannah <<

wednesdae...180309

2009-03-18T12:49:00.003+08:00

da last wednesdae bfer my attachment at sgh starts...

a 3 week full of attachment...

it also means dat i have 2 put my skills 2 da test...

n it also means dat i'm gonna b damn tired...

i juz kinda dread it...

hmm...

i tink coz of da working tym n shoes dat i'm wearing currently fer work...

it juz tires mie A LOT!!!!

i hate it 2 da core!!!

gonna buy new shoes...!!!

i dunt care...

its my own choice...

hehehes..

n y i sae dat i hate da working tym is coz i hate 2 wake up early..

its not juz early...

its damn early lah..

imagine waking up at bout 430 am!!!

wuld u want 2 du it??

i tink shuld b a no, rite??

hmhmmmm...

ok done fer attachment complains...

let mie talk bout ytd...

hmmm..

ytd went 2 E!HUB at downtown east, pasir ris..

went dare 2 bowl...

a few yrs since i last bowl...

hmm..

was nice but was really feeling dat i was still a SUPER noobie lah...

my hand was so stiff...

hahahsh...

da gutter will b da 1 dat olwaes get my ball n not da pins..

hhhhehehehehehs...

dats how noobie i m...

hahhas...

but da nice part was my lane was near my bro's fren's lane..

n my bro's fren hu is a chinese had a bro...

n da bro is damn hot 2 mie...

i melted da moment i c his face..

hahhahahaahs...

hmmmm...

evry ware i go will olwaes have sum1 dat i lyk....

hehehhs...

siao....

but really ah, i'm lyk imagining his face rite now..

can tell dat he's a lil mix here n dare...

u noe, he look lyk he's chinese + eurasian...

woooo...

hot stuff...

juz cant stand being melted...

heheehes...

k lah..

if u all wanna comment juz drop it in da whispers corner....

hehehehs... *ching ching*

k...

bubbyes...

take care all...

xoxo

>> zazziezannah <<

going...going.... goiNG.... GONE!!!!

wednesdae...110309

2009-03-11T18:47:00.002+08:00

a wednesdae...

da dae dat my dear bro went fer his 3 daes 2 nites camp at PULAU UBIN...

was bored n is bored...

went out wif parents 2 tampines n geylang...

da joo chiat area lah...

but i was feeling so lonely w/o my bro wif mie..

hmmm..

i juz feel so happy wen i'm wif him...

sumtyms we du argue or even fight...

but he's da only 1 dat can make mie happy other than my gurlfrens n parents...

hmm..

i tink dis wil go on even though i may b attached in da future wif a guy of my dream...

hmm...

talking about getting attached, i juz remembered sumting bout my lyf...

hmm..

coz wen i looked at da calender in my phone, i planned 2 get married at d age of 24...

coz da date 150215 fall on a sundae wich is a usual dae dat malay couples hold their wedding ceremony...

but looking at myself now, i dunt even tink about love though i may ardy b 18...

wich is lyk 6 yrs awae frm da age of 24...

hmm...

i've got A LOT of crushes but NOT love even once....

i got no EX...

hahahahs...

but it still dunt make mie feel lyk a ' DESPO' to get attached...

coz i'm lyk finding da 1st love n make it da last love...

but i noe dat it may not b possible coz its sumting dat is VERY VERY VERY RARE....

wad i min by rare is dat it only happens 2 certain people...

hmm....

but stil i'm NOT feeling quite troubles by my own love lyf..

dunt worry peeps...

i noe wad 2 du n love lyf is meant 2 b taken care by GOD...

so i'll juz go on wif my own single-mingle lyf fer now till i'm 20 or 21...

hehehes....

k lahs babes...

going now...

i tink dats da story of my lyf fer 2dae.... ; )

so ya....

blog again may b 2mr of i got da tym...

coz may b i'm going out again 2mr...

juz 2 kill my boredom dat i hate 2 da core...

hhehehehes...

kz all...

take care...!!

xoxo

>> zazziezannah <<

going...going...goiNG... GONE!!!!

tuesdae...100309

2009-03-10T21:33:00.002+08:00

hmm...

a tuesdae...

da dae dat marks dat 2mr my bro will b going fer another 3 daes 2 nites camp...

hmmm...

gonna b bored again at home wif my parents only...

hmm...

gonna miss talking 2 him bfer i getta sleep...

dis tym round he's going 2 PULAU UBIN..

hmm...

heard a few scary stories bout dat particular island...

but wad 2 du...

i cannot b keeping my bro in da house 24/7 fer all his life rite..

so gotta let him go..

he have been going camp after camp..

alwaez been leaving mie only wif either da computer or my macky...

hmmm...

its been a wile since i go out only wif him...

planned 2 go shopping wif him only dis coming sundae wile my parents go over 2 my grand's house 2 discuss bout a certain matter wif my father's siblings...

hmm...

juz dunnoe y i juz dunt feel lyk dropping by 2 da place...

hmm...

i juz merely dunnoe y n plz dun ask mie y...

; )

k lahs babes...

i tink dats all dat i'm gonna share wif u all 2dae...

i may write in 2mr again coz of my boredom...

hmmm...

k lahs...

bubbyes...

xoxo

going...going...goiNG... GONE!!!!!

saturdae...070309

2009-03-07T23:36:00.002+08:00

a saturdae...

had 2 wake up early...

sumting dat i hate wen its my holidae...

but had sumting on...

volunteered 2 du da EXTREME MAKEOVER fer da elderly's house..

posted 2 lavender area...

met siti n fu yang at da escalator of lavender mrt....

hmmm....

st 1st i dint wanna go but my good side of my soul keep asking mie 2 go..

so i followed my good side...

heheheehs...

ya started work at 830 after our briefing...

we moved out all her belongings 1st 2 da corridor...

it was A LOT...!!!

dat part ardy tires mie...

but i had 2 go on...

my task was 2 remove all da stuff dat i find not useful fer her...

but wen i ask her if i can trow da stuff awae, she sae " NO NO"

hmmm...

so i had 2 juz gather it sumware lah...

dis went on till 530..

it was sooo damn tiring but hmm...

i tink i find it quite touching lah..

u noe 2 bring smile 2 da elderly at d end of da dae...

hmm =)

okies...

i tink if i go on telling u all da stories of wad had happened oso i tink it'll bore u all...

hehehehes... ; )

; ) ; ) ; )

k lahs all...

will post more wen dare r events or wen i'm lyk really damn bored...

hehehehs...

take care all....

xoxo

>> zazziezannah <<

tuesdae...030309

2009-03-03T18:56:00.002+08:00

a tuesdae...

da 3rd of da 3rd munth in yr 2009...

tym flies even though i'm lyk soo damn bored at home...

juz dunnoe wad 2 du except fer waking up n sleep late...

hmmm...

wen i tot of going out, da clouds seems 2 understand wad i wanna du n so it rained fer olmos da whole dae...

planned 2 go gym in da morning but then i woke up late so it equals 2 staeing at home...

hmmm....

i dint expect my lyf 2 turn out 2 b damn boring...

da ting i wanna du now is 24 hrs of shopping...

shopping all ard s'pore...

buy stuffs dat i love...

new shoes, clothes, watches, accessories...

da normal stuff dat a gurl wuld buy...

hmm...

i juz feel lyk pouring out all my money on shopping but i wuld b called crazy if i du dat..

i'm not bonded wif any hospitals n yet i wanna du dat kind of stuff...

it wuld b different if i'm lyk working rite now...

but wen i came 2 tink bout working, it kind of freak mie out...

coz its sooo damn tiring...

hahahahhahhs..

but its reality rite...

u dunt expect sum1 2 b studying all her lyf rite...

hahahhahaahs...

hmmms...

so ok i tink i dun hav any more 2 share wif u all..

ok lah...

take care all....

xoxo

>> zazziezannah <<

sundae...010309

2009-03-01T16:55:00.001+08:00

a sundae...

it appears evry end of each week..

i juz feel lyk going out 2dae...

but da clouds juz cant resist frm raining...

hmmm

wad 2 du..

dats y they r called clouds...

clouds produce rain...

but i juz feel soooo damn bored...

juz wanna go out n hang out sumware...

juz feel lyk going shopping sumware...

may b white sands...

go buy sum accessories fer myself...

hmmm...

bored is da word fer 2dae..

may b going town 2mr...

fer sum purposes...

hmm...

k lah babes...

gtg now...

play more facebook...

hehehes...

>> zazziezannah <<

saturdae...280209

2009-02-28T00:06:00.002+08:00

hmmm...
hey all..

i'm here again...

28 of feb 09...

denotes dat its da last dae in da munth of feb in da yr 2009..

soooo fast..!!!

but we cant control da tym, rite???

tym goes soo fast...

dats a fact not a fiction...

hmmm...

went out 2dae 2 woodlands...

causewae pt...

went window shopping coz no money 2 shop fer now...

saw sum new models of FOSSIL watches wich r really captivating...

hmmm...

how i wish i'm a SUPER rich gurl but da money dat she got is from all her hardwork..

then i juz rmbrd dat my dad kept asking mie 2 get a sponsorship frm any of da hospitals dat i'm intrested in...

but i juz kept quiet coz i dunt wanna b tied down after i've graduate frm poly...

but i noe dat i really nid da money fer all my needs n wants...

u noe... its a human lyf 2 have bof needs n wants...

its a lie if u dunt...

hahahahs...

or it either mean dat u dunt have a lyf...

dunt b angry huh...

heheehs...

; ) ; )

hmmmm...

sumtimes i juz dunnoe y is lyf sooo unfair coz sum people r juz richer than d others....

hmm...

but wad 2 du...

its reality, rite???

hehhehhes...

kz... going now..

going...going... goiNG.... GONE!!!!!

wednesdae...250209

2009-02-25T23:31:00.002+08:00

a wednesdae...

a dae after exams ended...

n i juz merely dunnoe wad 2 du at home...

eat, game, drink... n it reapeats in a cycle...

kind bored...

juz used 2 school...

n hanging out wif my gurlfens after sch outside da CHEERS dats in my sch...

talk about gurl stuffs n break da quiet environment wif our luffters...

n go back home quite late..

it had sum sort of bcome our hobby...

between da 3 of us coz 1 of my cliques had 2 go home early...

hmmm...

juz love da moments..

i'm gonna miss da moments...

da tym wen we tell our secrets...

da normal secrets dat gurls usually have...

hmm...

i juz dunt wish dat da 4 of us r going 2 b separated in yr 2...

i juz dun want 2..

especially mie..

coz i juz dunt feel rite if i have 2 make new cliques...

coz sumtimes its juz soooo not da same...

hmmm...

gurls...

i tink u all noe hu u r...

da Z.A.F.A...

ZANNAH . ADELE . FARIANA . ANNABEL .

juz <3 <3 <3 da 3 of u...

MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS...!!!!

xoxo

>> zazziezannah <<

tuesdae..170209

2009-02-17T17:59:00.002+08:00

in a blink of both eyes... i'm ardy 18...
its sooo damn fast...
i ardy left my sweet 17...
hmmm... going on 20 in 2 yrs time..
but fer now i'm planning n how my life shuld b going...
tinking of going on dentistry after poly...
c 1st lah...
depends on how my life is going tru...
n i'm NOT planning 2 get married damn fast...
coz i nid 2 pursue wad i wan 1st..
dun wanna b tied down...
coz i've been tinking of sumting dat is quite impossible but it may happen wifout mie asking fer it...
hmmm...i dun tink i wanna type it down coz it may not b good lah...
so if u all wanna noe then ask personally frm mie...
hahahahhas...
n i'm NOT in LOVE rite now...

k lah...
nid 2 go study ardy...
juz printed da past yr exam papers fer mie 2 practice on...
hehehehes...
wanna catch up on my studies...
targeting on a better GPA.... hehhhes...
wich is 1 of my burfdae wish...
hahahahahhas...

take care all...!!!

>> zazziezannah <<

saturdae...310109

2009-01-31T19:44:00.002+08:00

wif a blink of an eye...

we had ended da 1st munth in da new yr...

its damn fast...

next munth will b final yr exams...

damn fast...

then if i'm still alive, i'll b continuing da 2nd yr in poly...

coz sumtimes, i juz feel lyk ending dis lyf of mine...

coz i feel lyk it...

i noe dis is sum sort of crazy...

but i dunnoe y..

i tink i'm going crazy each n evry dae...

hmmm...

sumtimes i wonder, y peeps kip saeing dat lyf is short???

coz i feel dat my lyf is damn long...

gonna b 18 soon...

c, ain't dat long???

hmmm....

k, gtg now...

blog another time wen free n if i'm still alive...

;)

wednesdae...280109

2009-01-28T19:09:00.002+08:00

currently at da sch's library....

nid 2 finish another pjt...

getting bord of pjts....

but still have 2 go on...

coz dis is life....

at a polytechnic....

it will bcome ur life toooo if u enter polytechnics...

u will b showered wif pjts n assignments...

wich will stress u up...

till u go bonkers 1 dae...

so, if u're 2 enter poly...

good luck 2 u all....

;)

mondae...190109

2009-01-19T23:34:00.002+08:00

a mondae...

kinda reconcile wif my frens...

so they'll c mie back in action...

da normal mie...

since i dunnoe y i became moody dis few daes...

coz i really dunnoe wads going on wif mie...

so sorry guys...

u all had been da target of my tantrum...

wich i dunnoe y all da bad tings culd spill out of my mouth...

it was really damn unintentional...

if it was, i wuldnt even spend my time 2 talk 2 u all...

hehhehehhehehehehs....

*ching ching* (blinks eyes)

heehehehhhehhs....

sundae...180109

2009-01-18T18:49:00.003+08:00

life....

sumtimes its enjoyable...

other times they r not...

its juz how u tink it's gonna b...

coz sumtimes it is juz becoz of the others...

or it may juz b purely bcoz of urself...

but da main ting is 2 du da best dat u can...

n dunt take tings fer granted...

coz sumtimes wen it's taken fer granted, it may harm u instead of duing u good...

n sumtimes peeps may not trust u as much as u trust them...

coz it may b by experience or coz they r purely not happy wif da person...

saturdae...170109

2009-01-17T18:27:00.002+08:00

another saturdae....
da dae dat i supposedly meet my group members fer da sawi pjt...
da dae dat i shuld b filming fer dat particular pjt...
but i cant make it...
i had stomach flu dis morning....
its not dat i'm not dare purposely...
i noe dat i made u all disappointed...
but i ardy told u all 2 try filming on mondae or tuesdae....
but since u all dint wan 2 give it a shot, sum1 has 2 replace my role as an interviewer...
but i learned sumting improtant 2dae...
however, its fer mie 2 noe n not fer u 2 find out...
only myself noe wad it is....
i may not feel guilty but i'll feel dat our frenship may torn apart...
bcoz of sumting dat has been controlling us....
i tink dats 2 bad fer us...
so i tink if u all wan our frenship 2 last long, u all may noe wad 2 du...
im ardy trying my best...but if u all find mie a disppointment,then 2 bad...
i cant change ur tinking bout mie...
i noe hu i m...
a normal rough gurl....a bad tempered n easy 2 blow up teen gurl...

regards frm zazzieezannah...

saturdae...100109

2009-01-10T17:32:00.002+08:00

a saturdae...n its np's last dae fer da open house...
been a great time...
enjoying myself dancing n singing at da school...
at da food station...

but i tink da best part will b mie falling in love....
i dunnoe if its a crush...
but i tink i miss him wen i dint getta c him...
but still sumtimes, i feel dat i fell in love 2 fast...
n i'm scared dat i may fell out of love dat fast too...
only my dearests noe hu is he..hahhahs...

k lah...
gotta go..
write in wen i got free again...
hmmmmm...

zazzieezannah...

thursdae...080109

2009-01-08T21:46:00.002+08:00

hey gurls...
zazziezannah's in da house...
been quite bz 2dae...
n will b bz dis few daes coz i'm helping da sch wif da open house...
its till dis sat...
so may not update dis bloggy fer dis few daes...
hahahahhs...

k lahs..
got 2 go now...

going,going.....GONE!!!

thursdae....010109

2009-01-01T19:07:00.002+08:00

ello gurls...
its da 1st dae of da yr 2009 n its oso my 1st entry fer dis NEW year...
ytd i getta watch da countdown on da tv...
its juz so sad 2 leave behind da year of 2008...
it left mie wif a lot of memories...
bof sweet n bitter...
sum r funny wile d others r painful 2 bear..
da new year oso indicate dat i'm getting older by daes...
18 dis yr 2 b exact...
2 years awae frm being a 20 yr old...

i juz nid 2 get a life plan done...
but i noe dat im not getting married in d early 20s coz i juz dunnoe y n plz dun ask mie y..
hahahahs..
may b coz my target of getting married 2 da 1st love is so ridiculous n it may not b realistic at all...
hehehehehe...

i juz wish dat in dis yr, da world will b more in peace,
lots of love in d air...
n i wish dat noe dat wad im studying now is really fer my future n not juz forced 2 study nursing coz of my 'o' results...

hmmmm....
okies babes...

i tink dis is all i have 2 sae...
sooooo...
muacks muacks....
<3 <3 <3

tuesdae...161208

2008-12-16T22:41:00.002+08:00

2 daes after attachment at sgh started...
damn tired..
i tink i wont b updating till after attachment....
so plz, plz, plz, plz, plz dunt ask mie fer updates coz its juz so irritating....
soz..
coz its wad i m...
if i dun wanna update, plz dun force...
coz its my bloggy...
k lah...
oh ya btw, my blog is under construction so it looks damn ugly fer dis 2 weeks...
k lahs...

take care alll...
muacks muacks...

xoxox

>> zazziezannah <<

wednesdae...101208

2008-12-10T20:52:00.002+08:00

ello babes...
i'm juz so damn bored so i'll tell u all a story 2dae...
i've been feeling great dis daes...
hmmmm
went 2 buy my bro's sch books 2dae...
n he met his fren along da wae...
i juz walked awae n let him finish talking 2 his fren 1st lah...
then we got on da bus 2 go back home..
on da wae home, he told mie sumting dat was funny but expected lah..
he told mie," u noe wad?? my fren asked if u're my lil sister,"
i gave it a luff...
hhahahahahas...
so it means dat i look like a sec 1 or a pri sch gurl lah
hahhahhs
coz my bro's sec 2, going on sec 3 next yr...

hmmm talking bout him going on sec 3, it reminds mie of da date...
its like so damn fast its going 2 b january again...
in like 21 more daes..
hmmmm
i really du believe dat we need 2 catch up time bfer time passes by..
hmmmms
in 2 munths time, its my 18th bdae...
hahahhas...
1 dae bfer final exams...
hmmm
hehehhehesss

k lahs babes n hunks...
hahahhs..

toodles fer now...

>> zazziezannah <<

tuesdae...091208

2008-12-10T00:14:00.002+08:00

ok...
its quite sum time since i getta post a new story..
ok since adele wans it, i post about standard chartered...
it was fun indeed...
soooo fun though tiring coz it juz took da whole nite 2 get ready fer da event...
riched sch at 8 plus... waited fer nana at np bustop...
went 2 da lt..took a seat n waited fer adele...
after sum time fer us 2 settle down, then we got our red adidas polo t n 1st aid bag...
then i, adele n nana went out 2 da zebra crossing near da lt 2 have sum time 2 ourselves n talked bout gurl tings...we juz luv gurls' talk a lot...
then khai called nana n he joined us so no more gurls' talk...
instead we talked about scary tings dat had happened in np...
adele got scared!!!!
i oso dint feel comfy talking bout scary events in da dark so we decided 2 move 2 an area nearer 2 da lt...
adele decided 2 go into da lt...
so left mie, nana n khai...
but instead of talking bout scary tings, we talked about growing up tings..
i juz feel dat its juz so nice 2 talk about tings dat happen in our lives as we grew up..
we talked n talked till it was time we had 2 go 2 our port..
i, nana n adele r tasked 2 b at east coast park...
imagine being at ECP at 230 in da morning...
it was damn cold...
so i decided 2 sleep wile w8ing fer 530 2 come...
its da starting of da standard chartered marathon...
i juz wonder how can humans juz challenge themselves 2 run a 42 km marathon early in da morning..
hahahahhs...
i tink dats nature...
nature made us tink in a different wae...regarding different tings...
hahahahhs
during da marathon, there r sum tings dat happen wifout u asking fer it...
1 will b a participant hu collapsed 2km frm mur port...
so i n adele ran over 2 da casualty...its unbelievable dat we ran 2 km in 10 mins..
hahahahahs..
i wanna run 2.4 km oso i failed so many times...
hahahahhs...
at d end of da whole marathon, we decided 2 take a break at mcdonalds...

k lahs..
i very tired ardy typing so much...
hahahahs...
k lahs...

toodles...

going,going....GONE!!!

>> zazziezannah <<

wednesdae...031208

2008-12-03T19:18:00.002+08:00

in life, more peeps hate u more than they love u..
i juz feel hated dis daes....
hated by da closest human dat have been wif mie since i'm born...

ytd, my bro lost my card reader..
so asked him 2 look fer it n he went 2 plae audition instead...
so i juz got a lil bit angry n went 2 look fer it myself wif help frm mum..

dis afternoon, bro dint wanna go fer quran recitation class at neighbour's house n mum is like forcing him but instead of talking 2 him herself, she used mie as da center peep...
u all noe how it feels like 2 b da centre peep rite??
1 saes one ting n another saes another ting..
then u dont noe wich 1 2 take side rite???
dat happens juz now n i blew up instead of taking either side...
i was so angry wif bof mum n bro..
now mum dun wanna talk 2 mie..
bro even typed in his handphone, saeing dat i'm a f***ing b**** in da house who is pampered...
it caused a heartache 2 mie...
i juz dunnoe dat i'm hated 2 dat extend...

k lah guys....
going now...
juz wanna slack alone n may b go out at night...
toodles...

going,going.....GONE!!!!

>> zazzieezannah <<

sundae...301108

2008-11-30T20:16:00.002+08:00

hahahahs...looked at my tagboard...
peeps keep asking mie fer an update...
hey gurls... juz wanna sae if i got no story 2 tell then i dunt update lahs...
hahaahash...
obviously...

ok lah i update 2dae oso coz i got story to tell...
a kinda embarrassing story but its juz so nice to tell coz its bout my life...
i went fer my religious class at 10 plus as per normal..
i go oso coz i got an exam to sit...
hehehehe...
it wasnt raining then so i juz wore any slipper dat i wan lahs...
wifout considering if its gonna b slippery if da floor's wet...
then wen i finished da exam n went out of da centre wich is situated at da basement of a hdb block, i was shocked...
it rained unexpectedly....
hais....
then i juz walked lahs in da rain...
luckily i wear da tudong wad so i no nid umbrella...
i had 2 go down dis lil flight of stairs wich leads mie 2 another block...
wen i was going down about 2 steps down... i fell...
yes i fell on da steps...
wich is like so damn painful lahs...
i tot no 1 saw it but i was wrong....
sum1 saw it...
a guy dat i'm close to lahs...
my religious classmate...
heehehes...
we olwaes contact tru smses....
he came up 2 mie..
i was like blushing n trying 2 hide da blush lahs..
but then we luffed about da incident...
hahaaasshsh...
since we're taking da same bus home, we walked 2gether 2 da bus stop lahs...
he kept warning mie 2 b careful wen dares a flight of staircase..
i juz dunnoe y we're like so close ware as i juz dunnoe how 2 talk 2 guys...
hehehehe....
ok not telling u all more bout my feelings ok...
no more....
hehehehs..

toodles...

going, goiNG, GONE!

>> zazzieezannah <<

saturdae...151108

2008-11-15T12:06:00.002+08:00

hey guys n gurls..
life fer mie has been normal so far...
nothing different...
though i may lost tings here n there...
hahahhas....
im kinda shock coz of da white tiger incident...
its kind of da 1st time i keep track of da tings dat happen ard mie..
hahahas..
bought ' the new paper' juz bcoz i wanna noe more bout wad n how it happened...
da pix in da newspapers r quite scary though fer mie...
it juz reminds mie of sumting dat happened 3 yrs back...
sum1 juz 'sky dive' frm 1 of da storeys at my block n landed at da bottom of da block..
juz dunnoe y it happens n plz dunt ask mie y...
hahhahas..

k lahs...
i tink i wanna go now so k lahs...
toodles...

going, goiNG... GONE!!!

>> zazzie zannah <<

tuesdae...041108

2008-11-04T14:26:00.002+08:00

oooh a tuesdae...
da 2nd school dae on da 4th week...
hahahahs...
k lahs...
i noe u all demanding fer a blog entry after quite sum time rite??
y so anxious??
exciting meh read my story..??
hahahhahash..
juz da plain old mie...
k lahs...
2dae is a simple story...

i skipped lecture fer da 1st time after 1 whole semester...!!!!
i juz dunnoe y lahs n plz dun ask mie y...
hahhahas..
may b tired after a dae at sch...
coz 2dae started at 8 am...
u imagine lahs..
i need 2 wake up damn early lahs...
juz bcoz my sch is like damn far frm home...
=(

wat 2 du...
hahahahs...
k lahs guys...
i juz tink dat its a waste of my time blogging stoopid stories...

take care all...

>> zazzie zannah <<

mondae...271008

2008-10-27T21:43:00.002+08:00

hey guys...
2dae's holi fer us...so slack a bit lahs here n dare...
but still gotta du sum revision...
i dunnoe y lahs...
i juz feel like i wanna du sum revision bfer da last min...
i tink i'm changing fer da better rite guys...???
hahahhs...

but i'm feeling quite down lahs...
its been 2 daes....
wanna noe y?
juz read on lahs...

ytd my dad came up wif a plan...
we went 2 east coast fer a meal...we joked ard as a family...
it was so sweet lahs...
i juz luv da moment of having a meal as a family...
coz its juz so naturally mie lahs...
cant b blamed coz im family centred...
ok after da meal...we sat at da beach,having a relaxing moment lahs...
my dad brought his fishing equipments along...
then he went over 2 da rocky area 2 fish lahs...
i was so happy dat he culd du his favourite activities again after quite sum time coz of his right leg...
ok lahs.. i watched him as he threw his fishing line,standing wifout using da walking stick...
so touched..
he sat wif my bro n i went walking along da beach alone...
so relaxing n calming...
then i wanna play wif da seawater...
so i decided 2 take off my ring n put it into da hp pouch lahs...
coz i dun wanna tarnish da colours of my ring...
after splashing da water ard, i went 2 da rocky area 2 settle down n watch my dad w8ing fer a fish 2 have a meal on da bait lahs...
i unzipped my hp pouch 2 take out my ring...
but wen i was about 2 wear da ring, i dunnoe y it juz slipped frm my hands n dropped into da water...
n so it was washed awae...
i juz dunnoe y da ring is so special 2 mie...
even though my parents were da 1 hu bought it fer mie..
n it cost them only 2 bux...
silver pluz platinum...
i got it wen i was 13...
so i tink dat makes it so special 2 mie...
i juz culdnt believe i was so careless 2 let it drop into da water...
i felt so empty wifout da ring...
i juz dunnoe y n plz dun ask mie y...

da best part of trip will b mie learning how 2 fish wif da guidance of dad..
tankie dad...

k lahs guys going now...
if u all wanna sae sumting juz drop mie a comment lahs...

going,going,going...... GONE!!!!

>> zazzie zannah <<

mondae...201008

2008-10-20T22:13:00.002+08:00

haiz...
its been bout 3 daes aftr my bro left fer pahang...
i've been feeling sooo super lonely...
i juz cant resist frm hugging, kissing n biting his super cute chubby cheeks...
but at times dare r sure moments of him making mie super angry n super sad...
however siblings juz cant b separated like lovers du wen they tend 2 hate each other...
dis is especially wen i only hav him in my life other than my parents...
we grow together wif a difference age of 3 yrs...
we tend 2 b mistaken by outsiders wen we hold each other's hand wen we r outside coz he's much more taller than mie...
he has a height of 1.78m currently at d age of 14...
tall aint he ???
hahahhsha...
ok... i tink i gotta story 2 tell u all,my dear readers...
dis happened on 1 dae in march..dat time we haven start sch aite, guys...
dat time it was oso da march sch holi fer da sec sch n pri sch...
then my dad had a dr's appointment at sgh...
so we decided 2 follow...
then dare,mie n bro were bored...
so i ask my bro if he wanna folo mie fer a walk nearby...
we came across a fruit stall so ching,ching we bought sum fruits lahs...
my bro bought honeydew n i bought guava...
we sat down sum ware 2 have our fruits...
my bro then wanted 2 feed mie a piece of honeydew but i refused at first coz it's kinda funny lahs...
but he still insisted lahs so ok i agreed...
then we he was feeding mie da honeydew, a malay security passed by our seats...
he looked at us n said " eee no shame "...
i was like wondering wads da big deal wif him?
i dint disturb him wad...
so muz he disturb mie...
haiz...

sum times people juz like 2 make assumptions on da 1st sight towards sumting...
dats kinda poor ting lahs...
coz God give us brain 2 control wad we wanna tink about n wad we wanna sae 2 people so as not 2 make other people wonder...
hahaahhsh...
wad 2 du...
we looked like a couple...
hahhahahas...

k lahs guys...
i'll write in again wen i have another relax time...

toodles...
muacks oxoxoxo

tuesdae...141008

2008-10-14T17:44:00.003+08:00

ok guys...
i'm back!!!!
its like olmoz 1 munth since i getta update my bloggy...
its coz of my macky...
its adapter burnt....
i noe its kinda funny 2 hear dat an adapter culd burn...but its reality...
mine did burn so i culdnt use my macky 2 update...
sooooo...

its 2 daes since sch started...
i was like so heavy 2 wake up early in da morning 2 go back n hit my books n c faces...
ytd started at 10 so i had 2 wake up at bout 7 n take a 1 1/2 hrs trip 2 sch...
sumtimes i juz wish... y cant i go back 2 kindergarten life n enjoy my super short dae at sch...
u noe kindergarten's like only 4 hrs at sch n wat they du at sch r juz 2 play n sing n all da kiddies stuff...
talking bout kindergarten i remembered dare was once wen i played catching in class...hhhahas...typical mie...
i was running after dis boy...
hhahahahs...
n u noe wad happened???
i was trying 2 catch him n he tried 2 avoid my hands frm touching him...wen he turned ard...
he banged into a wall n had a super deep n big cut on his forehead...
hahahahs....
so da moral is if u're playing catching n u're olmoz caught by the catcher, juz let da catcher catch u n dunt turn ard...
hahahahhas..
ya i noe its kinda stoopid....
hahaahhhas...

k lahs ... i'm kinda tired now..
so gotta go...
update again wen i'm not...

tuesdae...260808

2008-08-26T18:52:00.002+08:00

life has 2 go on no matter wad...
mai 3 weeks will b filled wif tiring attachments at SGH...
seriously speaking,i kinda dunt really like SGH environment...
dunnoe y coz i dunnoe y...
its obvious...
dare was once wen sumbody said dat ALL da SGH nurses r like models...
but wen i'm dare... i dunt tink so...
coz i tink da sumbody muz have been admiring herself only...
tink she so pretty meh...
mai mum more pretty....
sum of them oso quite big n not so beautiful like wad sum1 said...
2 bad lors...
i juz wish dat da attachment will end super soon...
coz i juz cant stand it...
now i tink i dunt wanna take nursing as a job coz i dunt tink its in mai soul...
i juz dunnoe y...
i tink sumbody muz make mie wake up frm mai dream...
i juz dunnoe wad i realy wanna b...
haiz...piple got ambition ardy i dunt hav...
so poor ting...
i juz cant decide mai own future...
ok lahs...enuff bout mai future n maiself..

riched home 2dae at 5...
changed clothes n went 2 da kitchen 2 look fer any food...
so dare r sum food fer mie...
after eating, i took sum water fer maiself..
i felt so dehydrated after a dae at da hospital....
wen i was pouring sum water, i heard stoopid a fellow playing da stoopid hockey under mai block...
so i decided 2 shut 'OI !' frm mai house as mai house is on da 2nd floor...
ok...i tink u all will call mie impatient if i tell u like dis only...
da actual story is dat da fellow plays his hockey by ramming his hockey ball 2 da wall..da sound will surely bounce back n up rite...
then, wen i was shouting, mai dad scolded mie fer shouting at da fellow...
i was like so irritated wif da fellow then mai dad scolded mie...
another stoopid 1...
he's like taking on side of da fellow...
fish lahs...
juz hate dis type of piple...
i was like swearing n swearing...
juz cant stand it...

k lah piple...
if i live like dis olwaes, i tink i'll die young...
k lahs...
take care all...

sundae...240808

2008-08-24T18:27:00.002+08:00

a sundae...
haahhash...
at last got a time 2 update u all wif mai life...
ahahhsh...
in da morning till noon, i did da usual sundae tings...

ytd was like so much fun...
not bad lahs thoughs...
hahahs...
went 2 hougang mall 2 get sum stuff in da afternoon...
quickly went home 2 change n then off we go 2 danish's burfdae bash...
danish is mai 1st nephew...da son of mai cozin...hahahhs...
he's cute n cheeky..
a bit tuff 2 take care though coz he's like super active...
hahahahsh...
love him a lot...
cutie danish...
he juz got a brother a few munths ago...his name is darwisy...
another cute lil baby...
noe wad??? he slept wen i pat him in da butt ytd...
hahahhas..
i tink babies will remain like dat till they grow 2 mai age...
kena force sleep then i go sleep...
hahhsh...

wad i still rmb is thursdae..
its like so much fun going out wif mai frens...
coz i tink i've been staying at home 2 much..
hahahahs....
actually da main idea was a class outing...
n it's like having lunch as a class...
but da sad ting is dat only 9 turned up although annabel was late...
haahhsh...
i n jess met in bus 88 on da wae 2 pasir ris mrt...
then we took da mrt 2 jurong east..
there, we met siti, adele , ting ting n ...
so ya we waited a wile fer nana 2 come...
then we walked all da wae 2 imm 2 have our lunch wif our dear dr may...
hahahhs...
met wif dr may we discussed on ware have our lunch...
then FISH & CO. was suggested...
actually i have a heavy heart of having our lunch dare coz frm wad i noe is dat FISH & CO sells BEER...
so its like i have 2 ask forgiveness frm god fer eating dare although i dint drink da beer...
i ordered FISH & CHIPS coz i juz dunt feel secure 2 eat other food dare...
hahahsh...
but 2 tell u da truth... da food dare kinda sux...
it juz dun taste rite...
im so sick of eating it after only a wile...
then dr may have 2 leave us fer a dental apptmnt...
but bfer she went she paid fer our food...
hahhhs...
after dat jess, nana, n bel went 2 talk 2 at sum1....
siti, adele n mie went 2 ARIES 2 window shop...
but dawindow shop turned out 2 b small shopping session as we bought sum accessories fer ourselves...
haahshhs...
gurls r meant 2 b gurls...
we juz cant refrain ourselves frm buying aniting dat is 'so into us'
hahahas...
then after dat we went 2 daiso 2 look at sum stuffs...
we even met a chinese celebrity dare...
ahahhahahs...
after a wile...
we went 2 jec...jurong entertainment centre...
it was like fun dare...
1st we went 2 pool...dats like mai opportunity 2 learn how 2 pool...
it's kinda fun n we luffed n luffed...
then we took 2 rounds of neoprints...
posing is like into us especially mie...
i juz cant refrain maiself frm not posing in front of any camera...
hahahhs...
mai phone will b da 1st...
ahahahahhs...
so its like so much fun wif mai frens ard....
TANX GURLS!!!!
adele's planning fer another 1 rite , dele...??
i tink it'll b suitable if we go on a dae in da last week bfer sch reopens...
RITE, GURLS??? !!!!

so all of u take care n have a whole loads of fun n tiredness during da upcoming attachment...!!!
hahahahs..
mine starts 2mr...!!!

wednesdae..200808...

2008-08-20T16:28:00.002+08:00

da date 2dae is kinda nice 2 look at...
200808...u c its like 2008 twice...hahhaahs...
lame lahs....
okies...
exams ended 2dae....!!!
but juz got a super backache...!!!
dats like urg stoopid...
juz about 2 enjoy maiself... tink study 2 much ardy lahs...
slept at 1230 ytd n woke up at 430am 2 finish up da last few chapters in PAS...
tink gonna screw up dat paper...
hahhhsahs...
i oso dun really noe wad i'm duing...
so i juz crap on da paper...but still got a bit of sense lahs...
hahahahs...crap but got sense... kinda funny...
going fer lunch as a class 2mr... i juz dunnoe wads it gonna b like 2mr...
coz dare'll b sum1 hu i juz cant stand at all..
but heard dare will b a confrontation 2mr...by mai dear frens...
i juz cant get da mood of confronting dat sum1 2mr...
i muz get da anger n bad mood in order 2 liven up mai bad looks...
but i dunnoe if i can...
hahahahs...

attachments coming next week...!!!
nervous lahs...coz its like they expect u 2 noe most of da tings ardy...
so its like kinda funny...
kinda super scared...!!!!
sum1 plz help mie kick mai fear awae...
hahaahhs...
dare'll b no1 hu can help mie except fer maiself...
rite guys???
hahahhahs....
kz loved ones...
happy holidaes or happy attachments...

saturdae...090808...

2008-08-09T17:25:00.002+08:00

wah...
its quite a long time since i getta post in an entry...
bout 1 month...dats a long time...so busy lahs...
going 2 have mai exams soon...2 b precise in bout less than a week....
have 2 study ardy..
cant play ard 2 much..
been having fun after got used 2 da poly life...
its quite nice...
even getta noe a wide variety of humans...
BACKSTABBERS...STORY TELLERS...HYPOCRITES...
i juz cant stand it sumtimes...how i wish i juz culd teach them a lesson dat'll make them rmb dat their characters will result them in getting dis type of treatment...
u noe...i juz regret being frens wif dis type of pple...
i've met 1 hu has all dis type of characters...its like being 3-in-1...like instant coffee sia...
u noe as a result i was also called a HYPOCRITE by dis sum1...i did nothing wrong 2 dis person but was called HYPOCRITE...
da moment i gotta noe bout it tru mai fren...mai blood was boiling n i olmos fainted in da bus...
i was damn angry...n at dat moment, i juz wished dat i have da god bros n sis dat culd help mie...
i feel like beating dis person up..but wen i tink bout it again,it culd destroy mai life n future..
but 1 dae i'll confront dis person...i tink it'll b 1 dat culd embarrasse dis person...
coz sum pple muz learn tru da hard wae...so i tink i'll make it hard...SUPER HARD...
hahhahhsh...

so i tink i muz go ardy...
may b i'll not update u all in dis 2 weeks...
coz i haven start studying...
muz start ardy lahs...

tuesdae...080708

2008-07-08T20:44:00.002+08:00

wah...!!
quite a long time since i get da chance 2 write a post...
been bz lahs...
attachments fer 2 weeks ardy made me tired enuff
til i'm like so lethargic
n hav lil energy 2 du mai usual stuff...
u noe i have 2 work frm 830 to 430...
n our work is 2 stand at a corner n watch wad da nurses do...
learning by observation...

da 2nd week was at hougang polyclinic...
tot it was fun...
but u noe da nurses were like bullies..
n their mouth juz cant resist frm gossipping..
sum even gossip bout mie n a fren in front of us...
dat type of attitude is like shit man...
sad 2 sae they r enrolled nurses...
sorry..but i'm not saeing dat all enrolled nurses r like dis...
but do tink bout others' feelings as well...
dunt tink dat u're ardy a nurse u can sae bad tings bout others...
excuse mie...
its not as if u've nvr been a paranoid bfer...
its not as if u've not been a student nurse bfer...
its not as if u can master da nursing skills wen u're still a foetus...
dis type of attitude is like DISGUSTING!!!
y cant they juz watch wad they r saeing...
dat was da 3rd dae...

on da 1st dae...
we had orientation early in da morning...
it was frm 830 to bout 1230..
our lunch was at 1...
den we were asked 2 go 2 different rooms...
mie n fren had 2 go fer da pap smear room...
so juz went in n tried 2 b frenly 2 da nurse in charge in da room...
den 1 pm arrived...
i asked fer permission 2 go fer lunch...
u noe wad she did???!!
she shouted " u want go fer lunch go lah!!!! "
den she slammed da table as if we were disturbing her...
so wad ever...
i n fren went out n i had even had da time 2 show her mai gangster side of face...
hahhs...

u noe mie...
i hate it wen pple were like showing stupid attitudes wen we did nuting wrong...
fer da whole week i dint even greet her or smile at her wen we met...
i juz showed da gangster face dat sum pple were afraid of last time...
hahahhhhs...

da other daes was like ok fer mie...
i like da room by which we were welcomed by da nurses...
it meant dat they were like happy 2 teach us wad they noe...
da feeling is like nice n heartwarming...

on da last dae...
hahhahahs...
mie n fren were asked 2 go into da diabetic foot n eye screening room...
i was told dat 1 of da nurses inside is like having attitude problem...
so u noe lah wad i'll do...
i went in , smiled n greet her good morning...
den u noe wad she did???!!
she smiled not sincerely...
its as of we were irritating her...
so wad ever...
den i juz went 2 a corner n read sum tings bout how diabetic foot screening...
so got infos here n dare...
den frm dat on i showed da attitude face dat sum pple will b afraid of lahs..
hahahhs...
guess wad..
da nurse da i greeted was kinda felt funny wen she looked at mai face...
i tink she's a lil bit afraid by da attitude dat i showed...
hahahhass...
so wad ever...
serve her rite fer being 2 arrogant n tot dat i'm da type dat can b bullied 1 ahs...
hahhaahhahs...
now u noe hu i m...

but frm dare i learnt dat we shuld not b arrogant wen we have da skills...
alwaes b rdy 2 educate others wen they need da skills or help frm us....

so readers plz...
wen u have da skills...
do teach others hu need dem...

so long fer now...
have 2 go now...
take care all...

fridae...270608

2008-06-27T21:51:00.003+08:00

1st week of attachment...
was tiring but fun n gained experiences here n there...
started 2 cam whore olmos aniware in da places...
hahahahs...

1st 2 daes i was posted 2 st andrew's community hospital...
gotta noe new pple...rahayu, julie, farihin, glenn, syafik...
n getta bond wif da group mates...jessica, dominic, eileen
nice pple...
tot da place is gonna b interesting....but it wasn't...
it was 1 of mai bad experience during attachment...
we didnt getta do aniting...dat part i understand coz we're new...
but da bad part will b da unfrenliness of da staff n enrolled nurses dare...
dey were like ignoring us...n kinda dislike us if compared 2 da advanced dip nurses frm nyp..
jessica, rahayu n mie get da same lvl...
however we were like sooo bored dat we walked frm 1 end of da lvl 2 another end...
till mai feet aches wen i riched home...
hahahahs...

da 3rd dae was at hpb...health promotion board...
was fun...getta meet all mai close frens...fariana, annabel...
ended at bout 11 pluz...
den we went fer lunch...da 5 of us...
dom, rauf, fariana, annabel, mie n adele...
went 2 harbourfront food centre...

4th n 5th dae...
posted 2 st luke's eldercare centre...used 2 b known as tung ling eldercare centre...
getta meet... dom, glenn, julie n a new fren...izzalina aka lyn...
dis time round we were asked 2 help around coz dey dunt rilli have a lot of workers 2 help dem...
so learned how 2 b more patient wif da aged...
had 2 hold their hands wen they're walking frm 1 point 2 another...
we had a lot of free time...so dares nuting else dat we culd do...
so we CAM WHORED...!!!
hahahahs...
juz cant resist frm not taking ani pix...
its part of our lives ardy...
hahahahs...

so peeps out dare...
its d end of mai story fer dis week...
so take lots of care all...

*zazziezannah*

sundae...150608...

2008-06-15T17:12:00.002+08:00

da mid of june ardy...
n its da dae dat marks mai age of 17 yrs 4 munths...
hahahas...
so fast...
quite bz yesterdae....
went fer a dae's trip 2 m'sia...
was really fun...
went 2 mai maternal great grandmother's place...
only a village...
but dat is ware da fun is...
so many tings 2 do...
a 3 hrs trip wifout breakfast is quite a torture...
mai aunt came n fetch us frm home at bout 9...
went 2 tuas checkpt...
at a point...we saw 2 line of cars...
ouh a traffic jam...
a bad 1...
mai uncle took da left lane..
since his car has an attached mini tv..
he opened a movie fer us 2 watch...
was nice...
in da line fer about 1 hour ardy...
we saw cars going in another empty lane...
tot dat their going another wae...but u noe wad dey did???
dey cut a queue by going in front of any car dat dey want wen we have 2 move up..
soo stupid..only noe how 2 cut queues only...
s'poreans kiasuness is a killer...
dun wanna go 2 da back of da queue line...
wad ever....
ended da wait after 1 1/2 hours...
den mai uncle drove up 2 da resting place nearby...da gelang patah rest place...
hahahs...funny name...its called 'broken bracelet' in malay...
hahahas....
da whole place was packed...
so mai uncle juz bought us some buns n teh tarik...
not bad...
den drove fer 2 hrs pluz 2 da village...
found a corner 2 sit n dares like so many 2 weeks old kittens...
hahahs...getta play wif da kittens...
2 whites,1 striped black n 1 full black...
so adorable...
wen i was watching da television...1 of da whites came 2 mai lap n slept...
hahahhs...
not forced by mie like wad mai bro did...
after 2 hours dare...mai cozins asked if we culd go 2 da nearby hot spring...
mai uncle agreed n drove us dare...
da unfortunate ting is dat they r cleaning up da pond so we dint managed 2 getta play in da water...
so after a wile we went back 2 da house...
i juz went back n played wif da kittens wif mai mum's youngest cousin...
den it's dinner time...da best time...
mai mum's aunt had prepared us cabbage soup,fried fish n super nice sambal..
juz cant resist frm having another helping...
after having dinner...it was time fer us 2 go back 2 s'pore...
everyting dat starts will come 2 an end...
on da wae back...an incident happened...
we were happily talking happily in da car wen a car zoomed past n suddenly skidded n turned bout 270 degrees...
luckily mai uncle was driving slowly..so he pulled an emergency brake..
luckily dat particular car did not went into da downward slope...
if not i dunnoe wad 2 sae ardy...
huhs...

so getta go buy meal ardy...
hhaahs...
bubbyes...

wednesdae...110608...

2008-06-11T19:26:00.001+08:00

oooh wednesdae...
hahahas...
nuting 2 du ardy...
hahahs..
played games fer a wile...
den go sign in frenster...
played sum music tru imeem...oldies 2dae...
haahs...
write a short love story...mum n daughter love story...
den nuting 2 du...
aghs...
so sian...
no school mah...
so bored...
dunnoe wen n y sch become so interesting...
haahahahs...
i tink coz it make me walk n go round like shopping...
but wif books...
hahahahs...
sit in class n lecture teatres...
tink got hooked 2 poly life ardy....
hahahhs...
so gtg....
post 2 u all soon...

BUBBYES...
<3

saturdae...070608

2008-06-07T18:05:00.002+08:00

another saturdae after a week of common tests...
n d end of da common test week symbolises sumting....
2 weeks of holidaes...
2 weeks onlie..but still got clinical attachment...
tot was going 2 b paid dis attachment but not...
nvr mind...its juz part learning...
so juz go have fun...
observe n learn...
hahahahas...
went 2 st andrew's community hospital in da morning fer orientation...
gonna b dare fer 2 daes of attachment...on da 26 n 27 june...
will b working frm 830 to 430...
wad a long hour...
but dunnoe how its gonna b...
may b fun,may b boring...
it all depends on how i do fer it....
peeps..i nid 2 go now...write 2 u all soon wen i got da time...

saturdae...310508

2008-06-01T08:33:00.000+08:00

a saturdae...da last dae of may...
its like so fast...
in a blink of an eye its ardy may n another blink led 2 d end of may...
school's quite tiring but so damn fun....
lectures,tutorials...
nice...
will b going fer clinical attachment soon...
tampines,simei n hougang will b da areas fer mai attachment...
ooohs...
quite far but ok lahs fer miee...
its quite some time since i go shopping...
miss shopping...
luckily da GSS is quite long...
hahahs...
can go shopping...
wad a shopaholic...
i dont noe y n wen did i become a shopaholic...
haiz...
hahahs...

okies so long readers....

a saturdae at last...

2008-05-03T11:46:00.000+08:00

da 3rd saturdae aftr i start sch has arrived...
juz dunnoe wads da plan fer 2dae gonna b...
heard frm parents we're going 2 parkwae parade...
juz 2 look fer some toyogo boxes 2 stuff mai books...
hahas...
getta go out 2dae unlike last saturdae...
stayed at home only...
hahas...
still tinking watta wear 2dae...
life at sch is becoming interesting unlike wad i tot bfer wen i was going tru da holidaes...
poly life is nice...
now quite used 2 it but i tink its 2 early 2 sae...
so far projects have been coming in...
some of them may b on da experiences during attachment but some on da lectures...
kinda hate da group project esp in 1 of da modules...
coz i juz dun like da members...
so racist...
dumb ass...
watever...
but i tink poly life is still new 2 mie..
hahas...

ergh...tired...

2008-04-16T21:24:00.000+08:00

uuuh....
i dint get da chance 2 post an entry...
coz i was tired...
hahas....
going up n down da hills...
sitting in lecture theatres wich is freezing cold...
doing da practicals wich looked easy but its actually hard...
queue fer food durig breaks...
wah...
it was tuff being in a poly...
mai back aches...
mai brain stressed up again...
mai ears gotta b awake again...
ergh..
wake up early...
catch da bus...
its gonna b tuff again...
hahas...

first dae hitting da books n notes...

2008-04-14T22:20:00.000+08:00

14 april 2008...
da dae in history dat i made mai first few steps in poly....
at first i was quite stressed coz i'm so dumb wen come 2 da part of making new frens...
but luckily,mai first lesson was a practical lesson...
n mai school's practical group was like so small...
so it's a good start fer mie 2 try 2 get used 2 da environment....
wen i entered da lab,i was blur at first fer wad 2 do da first ting...
but den i saw a malay gal...so u noe...
i smiled n asked her wad 2 do...
she juz smiled back n said dat she too dint noe wad 2 do...
hahas...
double blur...
ahh nvr mind..
den da lecturer juz repeated her instuctions fer those hu juz entered da lab....
oooh...put our bags on da cupboard...
take out pencil case n lecture pad n then take a chair n sit...
oh...
okie...
i stick 2 da malay gal..
along da wae,i found dat we got a few similarities...
our favourite drink,green tea...
she was nice...but i'm not sure of da future...
no1 can read da future including ie mai self...
hahas...
but it was nice 2 get a fren on mai first dae of sch...
hahas...
it was tiring but i tink it's ok fer mie...
gotta lose those extra fats by d end of da yr...
hahas....
2mr's gonna b another dae at sch...
w8ing fer da surprise...
hahaass...
kz...
zazzie's tired...
hahas...
toodles fer now...

oooohh...

2008-04-12T13:04:00.000+08:00

saturdae...
da last saturdae bfer i start hitting back da books...
nursing books....
hahas....
14 april will b da first dae dat i'll no more b called a 'POLY VIRGIN'
a polytechnic virgin...
sumtimes i juz feel dat i'm not ready 2 face da crowd of a poly...
but i have 2 open up n meet new pple...
it may b cool it may b not...
but it all depends on how i'll take it as...
as a challenge or as a chance 2 meet new crushes...
hahas...
i tink it's time fer mie 2 get da experience...
hahas... gtg now...

hahas...

2008-04-07T17:46:00.000+08:00

ooouuh...
life juz comes n go...
once u missed da precious minute,den its up 2 u 2 find another precious moment...
hahas...
2dae's mondae...da 7th april...
it means dat i'll hav bout a week bfer i'll end da precious long holidae...
sob sob...
but i juz kept saeing 2 maiself...
if i wanna strive,dis is da moment n time fer mie 2 strive...
aldough its sumting dat i may not like at 1st...
soon i may b able 2 enjoy maiself n take it dat da hate has bcome a luv...
a nurse-to-be...hahas...
i cant imagine an impatient young woman like mie could bcome a nurse...
may b dis is da way dat God had gave mie in order 2 transform maiself...
from an impatient to da most patient young woman...
hahas...
mai time fer playing audition may b cut short unless i wanna stay up late...
but hahas...
poly life may b tiring fer mie at 1st...
but i bet soon it'll b a breeze..
but making new frens n meeting new pple may b da biggest challenge fer mie 2 encounter...
but i dunnoe da reason...may b juz bcoz i'm sum1 hu does not noe how 2 make frens...
EWWW...very awkward...
hahas...
but i have 2 make dis weakness as a strength...
as in self-paradigm...
hahas...
so dis may b d end fer 2dae's entry...
hahas...

hahaa...juz bored....

2008-03-25T15:52:00.000+08:00

ouh..
2dae is boring fer mie...
mai audi game is patching up...so gotta play maple instead...
haha...kiddish...dares a kid in evry1...
hahha...
sound stupid sumtimes...
switch on da tv...again no programmes suitable fer mai taste...
haiz...
yesterdae...ouh..was like n adventure fer mie n mum...
tiring but nie...i tink...
hahaa...
wen 2 look fer spd ability centre juz 2 claim mai cheque...
ahhhh...money...
i luv it...
juz a bursary fer mie 2 survive on...
esp fer mai studies..books n stuff...
so many tings 2 buy fer da start of mai poly life...
haiz...

oouh....its a saturdae...

2008-03-22T17:01:00.000+08:00

its a saturdae again....haha...yesterdae was like so nice...got 2 go out...meet mai relatives...
especially mai cozin n mai nephew..
i felt like ages since i get 2 c him...
so cute...but i tink he's a bit shy..
haha..cant help luffing at how he carried a big plastic of toys..
hahha...cute him..
mai close cozin was oso dare...
at list i got fren 2 talk 2...
if not i have 2 sit wif mai mum n hear all dose mothers' talk..
sumtimes its juz so boring n not suitable fer mie 2 hear..
haha...
n da cool ting is i'll b getting another niece or nephew...
it wuld b nice if its a niece fer mie...
but its ok if its a nephew..
no prob fer mie...
den can go shopping again fer baby clothes n toys...
it juz feel so nice...
but dare was 1 ting we fergot 2 du...TAKE PIX WIF MAI NEW PHONE...
den at list i can put it up here...never mind dare may b a next time...
okie fer now...

so sorrie...

2007-11-07T21:36:00.001+08:00

fer dose hu hav bin reading mai blog...i'm so sorrie dat i culdn't sen in ani posts due 2 mai 'o' lvls...its upcoming even faster den i xpected...n now 2 nite...i juz wanna tel u dat i onlie hav onlie 1 more paper 2 b accomplished on nxt tues...13 nov...aftr dat its mai turn 2 make mai bro jealous coz i dun nid 2 studie at all..
fer dose hu r taking da 'o's nxt yr....wish da bez of luck n rmb 2 take xtra supplements befr u get seriouslie ill..
dats it fer now coz juz cant stand it wif da sleepiness...
NITES evry1...

-zazziezannah-

so sorrie...

2007-11-07T21:36:00.000+08:00

ooohhh...tired 2dae...

2007-07-28T16:47:00.000+08:00

on a saturdae...i woke up at 630...i tink dats stupid...coz i juz h8 2 wake up at dis tym...ok sinz i av 2 go fer sumting...i juz did it...was nearlie l8 fer skewl...fer da tiring newspaper collection...went 2 da 17 storey at block 174A...wen down till da 14 storey...still no sign of newspaper or soft toys...dis is stupid...make mai effort n fren's go down da drain....but wen wi went 2 da 13 storey...oh mai god...da whole enormous stack of newspaper pluz soft toys n books were there...took them down 2 da 11 storey n tied dem up...went down n down till da last storey...luffters fillled da lift olwaez n photos were taken lyk wi rule da world...a sweet but tiring dae...

da moz embarrassing n upsetting dae...

2007-06-19T10:00:00.000+08:00

woke up at bout 6.45 am...juz cant stop maiself frm sleeping coz was 2 tired frm yestrdae's work...wen 2 skewl earli coz mai eng tchr wan evry1 2 cum earli....juz dont noe wad hr kewl surprise is...ok...walkd 2 da bus stop n bus 89e came...so took da bus...tot it was full of working adults coz its going 2wards da airport wadvr lah...den wen i alight,i was rilli shocked...it made mi change mai mind...it is not due 2 da place dat it is going...da fare fer da bus was rilli damn stupid xpensive...i was swearing n swearing 2 mai self...how i wish i was not dat stupid 2 not noe dat da bus fare was so xpensive...

pass bout dat...w8d fer bus 83 2 cum...den it came...took da bus...lookd fer mai seat..den sumting shocking happened...mai fren hu alwaes took anothr bus was dare 2...sat wif hr n started mai long chat wif hr...she said dat 2dae she juz wuld lyk 2 change hr mind...wen 2 da shop n den wen 2 skewl...wi richd skewl earlie...den wen 2 da skewl hal...da big surprise came...it was mai eng tchr wanna compare da 4 expres results wif da sec 5 normal acad's...aiyah...cheh...tot wad onli...den...da tchr said dat she wans 2 announce all da names of mai class hu did not du as wad she expected of us...mai god...it was lyk a lightning striking at mi...den she rilli said mai name....ZANNAH...mai i was felt lyk i didnt hav ani face lyk dat...fer dose hu r reading dis...u noe wad she xpected frm mi at da dae she stepped in mai class??? she said according 2 ur t-score....u muz get an A1 fer mi...n u noe wad i got a D7 as mai SA1 grade...dis is rilli uselesss...

kz....till here dat i culd share now im crying silently in mai heart now...nid 2 go...

-zazziezannah-

juz spending mai dae...

2007-06-16T15:07:00.001+08:00

ok...2daez quite bored...in fact it is rilli boring n i h8 boredom...can't go out coz mai dad's leg is still healing...hugh...boring,boring,boring...wanna go out!!!n guess wad...i still nid 2 stae at hom...oh mai...nid 2 w8 fer 2mr fer anothr dae...juz cant stop wishing dat 2dae will pass fastr...

juz spending mai dae...

2007-06-16T15:07:00.000+08:00

2dae's not dat intresting...

2007-06-10T18:24:00.001+08:00

heyaz 2 all dose hu r reading mai blog...juz wanna sae dat i du feel bttr 2dae...bought da panadol cold relief n took bout 6 capsules...mai head was rilli heavy n culd not resist frm sleeping...2dae i m lyk a monkey...juz culd not stop jumping around n was so energetic...
i olwaez got sumting 2 du...haiz wadvr...

mai grandma came ovr 2 visit mai dad...so juz took dis chance 2 sit in mai own room n ryte dis blog...tot wanna ask mai dad 2 go out...but wen mai grand's here...2 bad no chance...ahh...nvr mind lah...nx tym can...quite bored...tinking of going out l8r 2 go n buy mai bro's bdae present n mai dad's welcum home present...

kz...nid 2 go now....i'll ryte in nx tym...

-zazziezannah-

oh no...

2007-06-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

ok...2dae...i wen fer da adam khoo wadvr course lah...moz of da infos r rilli important fer da crrct wae of studying...it was frm 9-5...

mai dad juz came back frm da hsptl ytrdae!!!!so happie!!!now i dun nid go hsptl regularli animore...but wad i h8 is dat wen mai dad cums home...i'm sick...gonna run a fevr soon...now onli coughs n having a vry bad flu...

kz nid 2 go now...
rilli sick til can't type proprli...

-zazziezannah-

huh...tiring...

2007-06-06T13:40:00.001+08:00

haiz evry 1...evry single 1 of u hu r reading dis post...2 dae...fewh!!!wad a tirng dae...been spending da hole dae out syd...from morning til nite...mai mum told mi yestrdae dat she wanna make a new passport...so its mai job 2 accompany her 2 da malysian hi com sinz she is a malysian....u noe how da system works??? it was rilli dead slow...sinz dare r onli a few counter fer evry 1 in dare 2 make sumting lyk order fer deir passport...as earli as 0630, mai mum had 2 scream 2 make mi wake up...wi nid 2 b dare earli coz da Q will b dead long if we'r L8...managed 2 go out at 0730, took da bus 2 pasir ris 2 catch an mrt 2 tiong bahru...tot dat da mrt wuld hav enuf seats fer mi,bro n mum...sadli dares not...so wi had 2 stand fer more den 10 stations...n it was dead pack...sinz i was short enuf 2 stand undr a tallr man's armpit...dare fer i had 2 stand it wif da stench of it...YUCKS.....

at laz wi reach dare n had 2 stand it wif da crowds dare...i didnt noe dat dare were so meni malaysians in s'pore...esp chinese...i had 2 w8 da hole dae frm i was hungry til i was full...huh...frm bout 11 til 1 i was w8ing fer mai mum's no. 2 b called...u noe it was lyk 2 hrs...i was dead bored...1 pm...tot da w8 was ovr...mai conclusion wen down da drain coz...we'll b w8ing fer anothr 3 hrs fer da passport 2 b readi fer collection...oh shit...dis is so freakingli scarie...tym passes by as if da clock is out of battery...it was so slow...i tink dat its tru if pple said dat tympasses by quickli if u r having fun...n yestrdae...wi indeed had fun...i was sleeping on da chair...tot i had sleep fer an hour but it was onli 10 mins...dats not fair...suddenly remembred of mai romance mly novel...i new dat i culd finish it in dat 2 hrs pluz...

3 hrs ovr...got da passport...mai mission's ovr fer dat dae...decided 2 visit mai dad at changi chalet [hospital]...wen 2 east point 2 grab a bite n walked 2 da chalet...spen mai tym dare til nite n wen home fer mai dreamland....n 2 post dis blog...

kz...zazzie's outz...

ryt 2 all of u soon

2dae...

2007-06-02T14:21:00.000+08:00

hmmm...its 2 munths sinz he juz got involved in da accident at johor...but hi's still at da hospital...stil in pain due 2 his wound on his ryt leg...juz went tru a skin drafting opt...ahhh...pass bout dat lah...lyf has 2 go on no mttr wad hppens...juz go mai report book n mai,mai...dat was bad...an A2,an F9 n 4 D7s...dat was wad i got wen i mixed mai feelings of stress ovr xams n family probs...serve mi ryt...but i du tink dat its not fair coz i dun wan it 2 go lyk dis...hu wans...

bttr stil im taking da 'o's dis yr...n mai SA was lyk a decomposing lean meat in da rubbish dump....wad evr it is i still nid 2 go tru lyf as it is...juz dat im 2 disappointed n depressed ovr wad had happen...n by da wae da accident dat i tol all of u in da 1st place does not happen 2 mai bf or god bro lyk dat but its mai own daddy...n fathrs dae is round da cornr...

poor ting mi...

kz ryt 2 u all may b 2 mr...

muackz
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